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[paperwork]

I've been lurking on this site for a long time. I recently made an account and it's almost surreal that I got accepted. It feels like it's another step towards CTB. I've been haunted with thoughts since I was 11, and I'm 28 now. I've tried to (stupidly) poison myself with lily of the valley, I've attempted hanging more times than I can count and I'm seriously considering drowning or co2 suffocation. Sn seems easiest but hardest to obtain. Times are tough lol.

 

[darksouls]

welcome to sasu

 

[Forever Sleep]

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry you've been suffering since childhood. I hope you find some solace here.

 

[paperwork]

Thank you! Me too lmao, I dont know if I'm fully committed to ctb quite yet, it depends on if certain things work out, or don't.

 

[kuroshimi]

Welcome here and sorry that you struggling. I myself reached some kind of point of no return when I was accepted. But I mostly like being here.

 

[paperwork]

Honestly it's really nice to be able to voice how I'm feeling. I don't feel comfortable telling anyone in my life because if I want to do it, I feel like I should have the freedom to be able to. If I told someone irl I'm so scared I'd be locked away.

 

[unluckysadness]

Welcome here I hope you'll find answers and above all : peace.