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[AspergersX]

Hi all , guess my handle explains it all ...38 young old with extreme Asperger's syndrom never had any professional help cause ive always thought it's useless ...I don't know how I made this this long ...not looking for an easy or painless way , painful or painless the outcome is one ..the real pain is leaving 2 boys behind

 

[HGL91]

Hi all , guess my handle explains it all ...38 young old with extreme Asperger's syndrom never had any professional help cause ive always thought it's useless ...I don't know how I made this this long ...not looking for an easy or painless way , painful or painless the outcome is one ..the real pain is leaving 2 boys behind

Welcome to the forum. It's common for people on here to have aspergers or autism. Hope you stick around. There are so many kind and helpful people on this forum.

 

[AspergersX]

Thanks ! That's why I'm here to talk to people I can relate to .

 

[HGL91]

Thanks ! That's why I'm here to talk to people I can relate to .

Of course. :) How old are your boys?

 

[AspergersX]

Of course. :) How old are your boys?

9 & 6 been divorced for 2 years and the sad part they don't have good mom , she just doesn't care about them and I can't do anything about it cause I can't win the custody .

 

[HGL91]

9 & 6 been divorced for 2 years and the sad part they don't have good mom , she just doesn't care about them and I can't do anything about it cause I can't win the custody .

That's so sad. :/ And if she doesn't care about them, she probably doesn't give up custody because she wants to keep the power.

 

[Tom9999]

Hi all , guess my handle explains it all ...38 young old with extreme Asperger's syndrom never had any professional help cause ive always thought it's useless ...I don't know how I made this this long ...not looking for an easy or painless way , painful or painless the outcome is one ..the real pain is leaving 2 boys behind

Hi and welcome. I hope you find the support, understanding, encouragement, and feedback you need to help you decide what is the next best step for you.

 

[AspergersX]

That's so sad. :/ And if she doesn't care about them, she probably doesn't give up custody because she wants to keep the power.

She left them for over 3 months and they are staying with her mom which is worst she barely bust them or call !
Anyways that's not why I want to off myself really I've always wanted to do it even in my best times ...all I could think of is wearing myself out swimming far in the ocean till I can't no more ...that's all I think of . Too bad I'm a good swimmer it will take a while!

Hi and welcome. I hope you find the support, understanding, encouragement, and feedback you need to help you decide what is the next best step for you.

Thanks bro ! I feel like home already

 

[IsadoraBeauxdraps]

Welcome,
I'm sorry you're in pain

 

[HGL91]

@AspergersX Jeez. So they're with their grandmother, and they can't see their dad? So sad for the kids and you. Gosh, life is quite unfair.

 

[AspergersX]

@AspergersX Jeez. So they're with their grandmother, and they can't see their dad? So sad for the kids and you. Gosh, life is quite unfair.

They are not in good hands and the damage has been already done !

 

[ralphnol]

jesus... man I am here. If you wish to talk more. I am 35. Thinking about ending it all. Sorry about your sons. At least I didnt have any kids.

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

Hi all , guess my handle explains it all ...38 young old with extreme Asperger's syndrom never had any professional help cause ive always thought it's useless ...I don't know how I made this this long ...not looking for an easy or painless way , painful or painless the outcome is one ..the real pain is leaving 2 boys behind

Welcome aboard!

I concur that it's very difficult to find effective professional help when on the spectrum. It took me years to work out that CBT is about as helpful as a fart in a space suit, all because of how my mind works. Would you mind sharing a bit more about your diagnosis? I'm curious as to when you were diagnosed and how you tried to manage it e.g. denial, masking etc.

I'm also sorry to hear about your sons. :( I only have the one, and he's a little older. TBH he's the main thing stopping me from ctb at the moment; ideally I'll be able to put off ctb until he's 18 or so, mainly to try and make it easier for him to get past it and live a good life. As awful as it sounds, at least in your case it's their mother that's more likely to damage those poor lads than the effect of knowing that their old man ctb.

 

[woxihuanni]

It took me years to work out that CBT is about as helpful as a fart in a space suit, all because of how my mind works.

Ahah, this is my favourite comment on CBT. It seems to be universally agreed here that it's useless.

 

[ralphnol]

Pardon me, I am new here, but what is CBT

 

[marconk]

Pardon me, I am new here, but what is CBT

cognitive behavioral therapy

 

[AspergersX]

Welcome aboard!

I concur that it's very difficult to find effective professional help when on the spectrum. It took me years to work out that CBT is about as helpful as a fart in a space suit, all because of how my mind works. Would you mind sharing a bit more about your diagnosis? I'm curious as to when you were diagnosed and how you tried to manage it e.g. denial, masking etc.

I'm also sorry to hear about your sons. :( I only have the one, and he's a little older. TBH he's the main thing stopping me from ctb at the moment; ideally I'll be able to put off ctb until he's 18 or so, mainly to try and make it easier for him to get past it and live a good life. As awful as it sounds, at least in your case it's their mother that's more likely to damage those poor lads than the effect of knowing that their old man ctb.

I'm self diagnosed ...Ive always had it thinking back how I was so different from everyone else since ever I was a kid ...my own family used to put me down by calling me names and saying I was a complicated person ( can't blame them they don't know and still don't know what it is) which just made it worse and honestly that's what I've always thought until I started looking it up and searching and realized that im an aspie .

 

[Sunset Limited]

Welcome buddy. Your story looks like mine. I hope things go the way you want.