Never getting better

[SuffrInSilence]

I thought I was doing better. Got a new job and stuff.
but my head is bad again and I can't get out of bed today and I don't want to live my entire life like this.
I think my dog knows it's a really bad day, he's glued himself to my side.
thinking about cliffs

 

[endless_pain]

I can feel how sad it is to continue suffering even after putting some effort to make changes

 

[SuffrInSilence]

I don't think I'm going to get through the day without cutting. Maybe I just stop trying to get through the days tho huh.

 

[FuneralCry]

The reality is that there is no real relief from suffering in this world and I believe that existing can only get worse. Life really is so unnecessarily cruel and it must be tiring being trapped in that situation.

 

[SilentSadness]

Life is depressing, you're right. I'm in the same position of exhaustion and sadness. There is no limit to how bad it can get here. I hope your mood improves.

 

[peaches]

I thought I was doing better. Got a new job and stuff.
but my head is bad again and I can't get out of bed today and I don't want to live my entire life like this.
I think my dog knows it's a really bad day, he's glued himself to my side.
thinking about cliffs

I'm in bed. Maybe forever. My cat is by my side.

 

[SuffrInSilence]

I'm in bed. Maybe forever. My cat is by my side.

i wonder how much they're aware of. my dog is sticking by me like he does when I'm ill. I feel bad about how sad he'll be if I die. He won't understand why I didnt come back.

 

[peaches]

i wonder how much they're aware of. my dog is sticking by me like he does when I'm ill. I feel bad about how sad he'll be if I die. He won't understand why I didnt come back.

There has been more than one time in my life that I stayed because of my bond with my animals.
I did prepare a plan for their care.
We only have one cat now and she is young and resilient. She also favors my husband, so I don't think I'll be a missed.