Venting Nervous about failing

[Idontmatter]

As my time gets closer I'm getting more and more nervous about failing. I have a lot of what is recommended as far as meds for sn and I'll be doing the fasting. It's just every time I see a failed attempt thread for sn I get a little more nervous. I'm not that worried about the process and discomfort. It all has to work, I can't fail. I don't want to wake up in the hospital being treated like a criminal. I have plenty of sn to make a few glasses. Im trying not to overthink things.

 

[FrozenMango]

The threads about failed attempts can be educational. Learn from them. Understand what went wrong and avoid it

 

[Euthanza]

No one survives the second glass (in case vomiting), that's what I know

 

[Idontmatter]

The threads about failed attempts can be educational. Learn from them. Understand what went wrong and avoid it

I'm definitely. Some mornings my anxiety gets worse and I start overthinking.

 

[hellispink]

Anxiety is ending me too. I can't stop overthinking. I can't even sleep. However, I will fight my mind if I have to.

 

[Idontmatter]

Anxiety is ending me too. I can't stop overthinking. I can't even sleep. However, I will fight my mind if I have to.

Yeah anxiety and depression are horrible. I'm going to devastate my family but they will eventually understand that I couldn't go on like this

 

[thebunny]

as someone who will exit by SN soon, i feel you.

however, as i'm reading the threads of failed attempts, i've concluded two things on why it failed:

• they didn't manage to drink a second dose of SN after vomiting their first dose.
• a family member/friend found them too soon OR their SI kicked in and called for help.

i think it's best if you follow stan's guide and have a regime for it as to avoid any possible failures.

i hope you find your peace soon. i know it's hard and it's a constant battle. best wishes to you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand having the fear of failing ctb but of course many people have succeeded with SN. I envy those who die from this method, they are lucky as they cannot suffer anymore. I'm sorry that you have so much anxiety about ctb. We have already suffered enough without this, if only there is an option to just never wake again and not have to plan any methods. I hope that you find relief from what you are going through. Best wishes.

 

[Flying Away]

With CTB failure is always an option

 

[Idontmatter]

With CTB failure is always an option

True . At least with sn there are lots of successful ones