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These are my two bottle I received from D in April 2022. I took the pic in my mum's garage shortly after, with the labels peeled off. For the first time in 20 years I felt some control over my life and a little peace. I paid $1000 for 200ml. In July 2022, on the hottest day ever recorded in the UK, I had the police barge into my home and immediately arrest me and search my flat and seized both bottles, which were in the fridge. I was arrested in front of my neigbhbours. I spent the day/night at the station explaining I was suicidal. My family and friends know. I don't care too much as Im very numb. I almost got a criminal record for it.

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Hey… do you mind me asking… how did the police find out? Was it because you posted the pictures here?
 
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hopeless123

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Hey… do you mind me asking… how did the police find out? Was it because you posted the pictures here?

This is the first and only time I've posted this photo. I saw OP's post and it reminded me of the pic on my phone and thought I'd share.

Before being arrested, I never mentioned anything about N. There was a big operation that originated in the States. I think I read somewhere it was the FBI. People were having welfare checks globally. I wasn't paying attention and got busted by my local police. I swear I was the only person arrested! They didn't seem to know or care what the bottles were. My arresting officer said they had received a call from West Sussex Police to search my home for suspicious bottles.
 
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This is the first and only time I've posted this photo. I saw OP's post and it reminded me of the pic on my phone and thought I'd share.

Before being arrested, I never mentioned anything about N. There was a big operation that originated in the States. I think I read somewhere it was the FBI. People were having welfare checks globally. I wasn't paying attention and got busted by my local police. I swear I was the only person arrested! They didn't seem to know or care what the bottles were. My arresting officer said they had received a call from West Sussex Police to search my home for suspicious bottles.

Huh.
That's scary. I always wonder in these cases how they even knew that the person had attained it. It seems so flipping random who ends up getting caught and who doesn't.
 
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This is the first and only time I've posted this photo. I saw OP's post and it reminded me of the pic on my phone and thought I'd share.

Before being arrested, I never mentioned anything about N. There was a big operation that originated in the States. I think I read somewhere it was the FBI. People were having welfare checks globally. I wasn't paying attention and got busted by my local police. I swear I was the only person arrested! They didn't seem to know or care what the bottles were. My arresting officer said they had received a call from West Sussex Police to search my home for suspicious bottles.

The plug was already been investigated, thats why
 
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You don't need to search for a method anymore. Congratulations. You like reading and researching like me. It's great to chat with you and read your posts. If you go, I'll miss you. I wish you the best.
 
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How do you feel?
 
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Hoping you find the peace you seek.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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The things that make nembutal good for suicide also make it good for murder, so just having it available over the counter is a bad idea.

The only time the public should be able to get their hands on it is when they have requested voluntary euthanasia and are literally about to do it. If they abort the attempt (fine) it should be taken from them. It should however be fairly straightforward to get approved for voluntary euthanasia, with a short cooling-off period to prevent impulsive suicides among people experiencing a temporary crisis.
that's an evil lie u and the gov put out to justify enslaving and torturing millions especially in old age in nursing homes.

what a ridiculous evil lie to hide the gov making everyone a slave.

everyone realizes there are millions of people suffering or that will suffer extremely and would need to buy nembutal . to deny an escape to the millions suffering extreme torture is pure evil . and to try to make excuses to whitewash these evil oppressive acts is also evil

many are people are suffering in extreme torture and are totally desperate and would do anything to be able to purchase nembutal . the evil gov idiots made nembutal a crime to make everyone a slave and are torturing many and have tortured millions that have suffered extreme torture and couldn't escape. you are trying to make excuses for the torture of millions of people

everyone realizes there are millions of people suffering or that will suffer extremely and would need to buy nembutal . to deny an escape to the millions suffering extreme torturing is pure evil . and to try to make excuses to whitewash these evil oppressive acts is also evil

they made someone else helping us with suicide a crime to keep us in the prison suffering extreme torture

around 20 million people attempt suicide every year showing the extent of the suffering

you nor the gov idiots are not superior to anyone else and can't tell us what to do with our own lives. if we want to or need to exit this hell it's none of your business. i haven't heard of any confirmed cases of nembutal murders as is that were a problem and as if Nembutal was the only way to murder other people . this is a ridiculous excuse . it's mind boggling you and the other one think this is a good argument. there are many ways of murdering people nembutal ranks nowhere in that list . however nembutal would be used by suicide in large numbers which is why they made it crime as they banned assisting in suicide , suicide booths, made all those crimes and even put nets around bridges : it's to stop suicide they made all these crimes .

billions of people living for decades 8 billion today and i haven't heard of people murdering anyone with nembutal . they have taken everyone's right to escape extreme torture , solve all their problems forever at once , and right to own their own body to individual autonomy making us slaves alll for some ridiculous bs lie . put many confirmed cases of confirmed murders with nembutal here or admit you are lying . 40,000 people die in car accidents in the USA. per year so then by your and the gov's "logic" then ban all cars cause someone might die and ban all knives people do murder others with knives. there's 8 billion people in the world . you could justify any evil with ridiculous fluke theories or fluke statistically insignificant incidents.


They made this world a prison taking away everyone's right to escape suffering pain and torture . they not only made nembutal a crime but also assisting in suicide they made a crime to turn this world into a prison. this is an exterme suicide prohibition state. we all will die anyway and we should all have a right to leave life when we want to . they made nembutal , helping in suicide, suicide booths etc crimes to keep us suffering every day in this prison for 90 years , the last 20-40 years in extreme torture

nobody can convince me there is an objective reason to live another minute or second in this evil prison hell. but you think you have right to tell me when i can leave this hell when we all will die anyway, ridiculous.

your prolonging of evil life as the epitimomy of subjective false morality because all die anyway is just a another falsehood to brainwash people into thinking making this world a prison is ok.

what don't you all controlling humans get about what i do with my own life and what i want to purchase is none of your business nor the evil gov business as long as i'm not affecting anyone else and i'm not . if i buy N from someone they are selling it voluntarily so it's only me and the seller's business it affects no one else and is no one else's business.

we're all going to die anyway. a human is just cells . but with a brain that can suffer constant unbearable pain and so one that needs to be able to buy nembutal to escape constant unbearable pain. u all wanting to control others and the evil gov have nothing to do with me and whether i want to kill these monstrous cells they call a human body i'm inprisoned in. if i get a constant unbearable pain in one of my organs i should be able to buy and take nembutal to take away that pain and solve all other of my problems if i want to : that is none of you nor the gov business. the only thing that matters to me is me avoiding constant unbearable pain. you seem to think you and the gov have some kind of objective morality for this 30 trillion cells and all other DNA life when there is none. you can't give an objective reason why i have to live another minute . you only have your made up false subjective morality which you try to impose on others even suffering beings who just want to end their pain . i don't even want to be on the same planet with such evil and injustice as this suicide prohibition state another reason and more fuel for me to kill myself asap but i don't need anymore reasons i have 1000 already

they made someone else helping us with suicide a crime to keep us in the prison suffering extreme torture

all these gov idiots who want people to wait or to make suicide methods crimes each should have to do all the people waiting to do lists, chores, work, for years to see how they like it . they want me to wait then do my job , chores , work 15 hours a day working a job ,chores , to do lists, dealing with problems suffering every day for decades

they made someone else helping us with suicide a crime to keep us in the prison suffering extreme torture
 
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Two little bottles of heaven right there. I'm jealous.
 
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@rotciv Do you have to inject Euthasol or can you just drink it?
 
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You don't need to search for a method anymore. Congratulations. You like reading and researching like me. It's great to chat with you and read your posts. If you go, I'll miss you. I wish you the best.

Thanks man

Been a long journey.

I went from being a person who believed that everything had a solution to completely doubting it.

But the cause is not completely lost yet, which is why I'm still here. Well, looking at the bottles...

I would like to live and help really sick people get N, but let's see what the future holds.
 
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Praestat_Mori

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Congrats on getting N!

But ... do you have to drink these 2 bottles? That's 1/2l. That sounds a lot and also difficult.
 
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Congrats on getting N!

But ... do you have to drink these 2 bottles? That's 1/2l. That sounds a lot and also difficult.

I only need btween 25 to 35ml from my calculations (concentration 400mg/ml remember)

If i drink the two bottles im prob going to the other Universe in 10 min lol
 
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Praestat_Mori

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I only need btween 25 to 35ml from my calculations (concentration 400mg/ml remember)
You beat me! I didn't do the maths right without a calculator. My mistake!
 
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that's an evil lie u and the gov put out to justify enslaving and torturing millions especially in old age in nursing homes.

what a ridiculous evil lie to hide the gov making everyone a slave.
Cut the rest of your rant for length.

Leaving aside your bizarre ideas about "the government" which have no bearing on reality, you'll notice that I didn't say people shouldn't be allowed to kill themself- the exact opposite.

You have spent five years on this website trying to convince other people that all life is suffering and they should kill themselves. You have no interest in "choice" except for yourself: you have chosen life for yourself and you want everyone else dead. To be clear, you are entitled to your own choice, and so is everyone else.

I want people to be able to make a genuine, thoughtful choice to kill themselves. Not a mere passing impulse, not being dared to do it by their friends, not being poisoned by someone else. Your ideas would inflict, by your own estimates, an amount of suffering equal to about three Holocausts every year, and that's not including the increase in murder, or increased numbers who might make an attempt.

For those of us who are chronically suicidal, we deserve a way out. That mustn't come at the expense of disproportionate increases in impulsive suicide and in poisoning murders. And certainly no reasonable person would assign any value to the policy prescriptions of pro-moralists whose only concern is inciting the suicides of others.
 
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Cut the rest of your rant for length.

Leaving aside your bizarre ideas about "the government" which have no bearing on reality, you'll notice that I didn't say people shouldn't be allowed to kill themself- the exact opposite.

You have spent five years on this website trying to convince other people that all life is suffering and they should kill themselves. You have no interest in "choice" except for yourself: you have chosen life for yourself and you want everyone else dead. To be clear, you are entitled to your own choice, and so is everyone else.

I want people to be able to make a genuine, thoughtful choice to kill themselves. Not a mere passing impulse, not being dared to do it by their friends, not being poisoned by someone else. Your ideas would inflict, by your own estimates, an amount of suffering equal to about three Holocausts every year, and that's not including the increase in murder, or increased numbers who might make an attempt.

For those of us who are chronically suicidal, we deserve a way out. That mustn't come at the expense of disproportionate increases in impulsive suicide and in poisoning murders. And certainly no reasonable person would assign any value to the policy prescriptions of pro-moralists whose only concern is inciting the suicides of others.

I agree 100%
 
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ham and potatoes

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I'm in UE and got two bottles of N. Lucky? Yes as I believe life is about among hard work.


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So that is 400mg/ml, and you've got 500ml.
That's like 200g if my math is right. That's like 20x the amount needed.
Needless to say, I'm quite envious
 
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So that is 400mg/ml, and you've got 500ml.
That's like 200g if my math is right. That's like 20x the amount needed.
Needless to say, I'm quite envious

Yes I know, right? If anyone is in EU Im able to help, outside im not gonna risk it
 
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Delete this thread. You are too handsome to kill yourself. I won't allow it.
 
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Wow, you're so lucky. Good for you!
 
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Fangarina

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Yes I know, right? If anyone is in EU Im able to help, outside im not gonna risk it

One of them will go my friend @willctbsoon, he deserves it

I'd maybe remove the bit about who you are helping with this.
As much as it is a kind gesture, it should really be kept private. Last thing you need is somehow someone tracing you and you gaining criminal charges for being a good friend.

Ngl - the temptation to see where you are and the ££ for some is huge 😂 SN arrives today but this is the ultimate dream.
 
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Delete this thread. You are too handsome to kill yourself. I won't allow it.

I've so many health issues and traumas lol only I know when its my time to go. And If you search my old posts I developed others indolor ways to ctb, this Nembutal thing was a God gift and fruit of luck and my experience on the underground drug world


I'd maybe remove the bit about who you are helping with this.
As much as it is a kind gesture, it should really be kept private. Last thing you need is somehow someone tracing you and you gaining criminal charges for being a good friend.

Ngl - the temptation to see where you are and the ££ for some is huge 😂 SN arrives today but this is the ultimate dream.

I will be already gone by the time.
 
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Yes I know, right? If anyone is in EU Im able to help, outside im not gonna risk it

Hi man. Tbh your thread pushed me to create an account after so many months lurking on this forum.

I am completely decided to ctb because i feel trapped in this meaningless life for so long but finding all the resources to go peacefully is a PIA. I have considered other options, but I don't want to risk it if there is even the slightest chance to harm someone else.

And now i am just too exhausted to keep looking at solutions without any perspective…

So manage to get access to N would be a dream come true but it's like hoping to see a unicorn in the streets.
 
SNastablesalt

SNastablesalt

she longs for freedom
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Never been jealous of anything or anyone this much!! Good for you! I wish you a peaceful and vomitless journey whenever you decide to embark on it 🖤
"Vomitless" I love that
 
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Hi man. Tbh your thread pushed me to create an account after so many months lurking on this forum.

I am completely decided to ctb because i feel trapped in this meaningless life for so long but finding all the resources to go peacefully is a PIA. I have considered other options, but I don't want to risk it if there is even the slightest chance to harm someone else.

And now i am just too exhausted to keep looking at solutions without any perspective…

So manage to get access to N would be a dream come true but it's like hoping to see a unicorn in the streets.

Theres plenty of options.
 
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Theres plenty of options.

Options that involve a peacefull exit and available resources without a prescription seem pretty limited from my perspective. Best alternative to N i found so far is DDMA. I managed to gather everything needed except Digoxin which seem impossible to find even on the DN.
 

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