Everything is getting worse and worse each day. It's a struggle to get through one day. I can't last much longer
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Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):I feel you. I hate waking up each morning. I hate every second I'm conscious.Me too. I just wish i had the balls to do itDo you guys struggle with lack of balls to do it?
No energy and no balls for me.
Aragon
ムーン・ヒーリング・エスカレーション
- Aug 27, 2018
- 45
Of course. If an easy way was "more accessible" maybe not. It'd then be, go to hospital, get injected - die. Bye! But nope, it ain't that simple. It's not doing it that matters, it's the CHANCES of survival, and ending up 10x worse off.
I know where to JUMP, there's a million places. But I don't want to end up with a broken neck, or back then in a wheelchair. Then I'll be even more screwed.
Ashpac
Lost and always will be.
- Jul 22, 2018
- 795
I Can relate. I cant wait to die. Fuck this life. What a shambles it is.
wanttodie
Enlightened
- Apr 19, 2018
- 1,823
Me too. I just wish i had the balls to do itI wish I knew for certain when I was going to die, that would be a relief hopefully unless ure future says it won't be till like age 93 lol! I'd be like oh fuck I better take up cigs, and heavy drinking now to expediate the process.
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 11,146
I've wanted to die ASAP for years. :(
I'm sorry, i totally get it. I honestly don't think most of us truly want to die here, we just don't see a way forward or struggle to improve our lot. I think the biggest problem is a breakdown in community, morals and values, social cohesion. We were never wired to try to solve all our problems all alone or be independent of other people. Today this is more likely that we feel left alone to try to handle it all.
NOISYMIND
Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
- Sep 11, 2018
- 163
I feel exactly the same. Every breath, every second being alive is a real torture for me.
Timeless
May everyone find relief when it comes to it..🤕
- Aug 15, 2018
- 72
No I don't, last and only serious attempt was fine except someone found me to soon.
This may sound strange to some but how could you have not the balls ?
Maybe it's more easy for me as a chronic pain patient. And I know the method to self induce coma with a few extra bottles to do the job.
What are you guys most afraid of?
Coma was very peaceful but waking up in this hell isn't..
Peace
MEoDP
Specialist
- Sep 2, 2018
- 346
Your username is actually the nickname of one of my current teachers in college,and she's female too. I'd be very surprised if you happened to be her. just saying..
Timeless
May everyone find relief when it comes to it..🤕
- Aug 15, 2018
- 72
That would be a bit wierd. But no I am not a teacher , I am just like everyone else here planning my ctb. And did a studie about medication. Which makes it more easy as I know 50 methods or more with (strong) medication.
It's a small world but not that small apparently.
MEoDP
Specialist
- Sep 2, 2018
- 346
I was referring to the OP,Shay. (having "Timeless" as a nickname...would be quite unusual.)
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
it's not the balls. Cause if I had some nembutal I could inject in me right now to die I wouldn't hesitate. It's the risk of trying to obtain the things needed for suicide and then the risk of severe permanent injury if it's not successful. You gotta be smart about this. Can't just go jumping off any bridge, can't just go shooting yourself with any gun, can't just throw any rope around your neck, etc. There are so many variables. You just gotta increase your % of the success of death and the least amount of pain involved.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
that's why i feel you should take a solid year of choosing, studying, and preparing the method. All while trying everything to really be sure if suicide is what you want/need. I've heard so many stories like the one where people get cut in half putting their body out on the train track and still be alive. You have to do everything properly. Not just swell your balls and risk fucking yourself up. It takes time to plan. If it was easy I would have ctb a long time ago.
MEoDP
Specialist
- Sep 2, 2018
- 346
Well,that's a relief. I admit,that kind of scenario would be...very interesting,kinda exciting even,like something you'd see out of a movie,but that would make everything more complicated.I tried partial hanging but my neck hurts so much.. is there a way i can blackout without so much pain? Im trying it everyday, i feel dizzy while doing it then back off bc of the pain. Im hoping ill manage to black out in one of these tries, or find a method that can make my neck hurt less.. any ideas?
MissLisa
Student
- Sep 13, 2018
- 153
I'm feeling like this now. I had to get away today, I ended up somewhere where I could die, one of the ways I had researched but unfortunately I couldn't hide my tears and people were watching me so I had to leave. Actually felt a little better thinking about certain people in my life and trying to be positive about an upcoming event. Got home and a particular person just made me wish that I had never come home. A tiny glimmer of hope I had just came crashing down again. It's hard for me because I have other factors that I need to keep going for, without those I would be gone in a shot.Similar threads
