Venting need to ctb before my 41th birthday

[calssilva]

I can not imagine that I am heading to one more birthday in the next month alive ! One more year at this world would be the worst nightmare for me

There is one month left...so I have to hurry. Next steps: buy SN and set the date/place...I am planning to use SN without any preparation....I am quite sure will work because I`ll not vomit

Time is running and I will be death very soon !

 

[tessa__mocha]

I wouldn't recommend SN without AEs prescribed or gotten through other means. I've seen a lot of horror stories with it, and all of them are from using it wrong

 

[stermc]

Desculpa a pergunta, mas por que você usaria o SN sem tomar os AE? Nenhum deles precisa de receita aqui no Brasil, pelo que eu saiba

 

[calssilva]

Desculpa a pergunta, mas por que você usaria o SN sem tomar os AE? Nenhum deles precisa de receita aqui no Brasil, pelo que eu saiba

é pq o meu será por impulso...senao nao consigo

I wouldn't recommend SN without AEs prescribed or gotten through other means. I've seen a lot of horror stories with it, and all of them are from using it wrong

horror stories...like what ?

 

[FuneralCry]

It's very much understandable wishing to be free from this hellish world and not wanting to spend anymore time here. I hope that you find the freedom that you search for, I personally hate what birthdays represent which is another year unfortunately trapped in this existence.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

Yeah, birthdays kinda make my urge to ctb stronger too. But you should prepare well for your attempt , even if it means you'll ctb a bit after the date. It's all arbitrary anyways

 

[lebrodude]

We are almost in the same situation although I'm waiting to turn 42 in a few weeks before I seriously start preparing.

I would urge you to fully prepare for this too, get the drugs you need to make this easier and higher chance of success.

 

[TapeMachine]

One of my closest friends just used SN without a prescription antiemetic; he substituted dramamine (dimenhydrinate) instead. He was incredibly apprehensive that he'd wakeup again, so much so that he rushed his ctb an entire month early just incase "it didn't work", that way he had enough time to formulate a plan B.

He's gone now, since the morning of the 28th; he did not create a goodbye thread.

I selfishly wish his anxiety would've atleast let him stick around a few more weeks, but all of those "sn failure" threads got to him, though I told him that shit is either easily explained by a mishap or simply fabricated.

He was a kind man and I miss him, but atleast he is resting now.

Sorry, my point is: it can be done without a prescription AE, but an over-the-counter (OTC) med is better than nothing.

I'm sorry you seem to feel rushed to leave. I do think it's better to take one's time with ctb plans, but I wish you well whatever you choose.