Need some tips about an overdose

[crazy1]

I can't find this anywhere but I feel like someone must of asked it so sorry if I've just been stupid and the information is somewhere on here already.
The only way I feel comfortable CBT right now is through overdose and I know I can hide it if it doesn't go right so I can always have another go or try something different at another point.
But, when I overdose I'm always sick when I take it and I struggle just to swallow them all, so it never properly works because I throw up a lot of the tablets before they have time to kill me.
Would taking an anti sickness tablet before work and any tips on making it easier to swallow all the tablets.
The tablets came in the post today and I should have enough to CTB if I just don't throw any up.
Any advise? (And sorry if the answers really obvious I just really want it to work, going to take it on Wednesday night, because that's the next time I'll be able to deffinetely get away with it, if for some reason it doesn't kill me)

 

[seafarer]

Info will be on here but what the hell to stop being sick look up anti emetic. This helps keep it in system. Also use the search on this forum there are millions of gems of information that can.mic and match to some degree..

 

[Soulless_Angel]

TIP for overdosing... Don't do it, simple as, highly likely to fail,

 

[crazy1]

Maybe I'm just been stupid, I just want it to work and every time I try do something else I wimp out. I hate this f**king world

 

[oopswronglife]

Like @Soulless_Angel said just don't. ODs on pills are romanticized because of pop culture and seem accessible and "easy". The reality is medication is formulated explicitly to prevent it and it rarely works. The sorts of things carelessness resulted in long ago don't mostly happen now. An OD has a massive chance of just making you sick or disabling you and a very low chance of killing you. There should be a "don't do these things" list in the resources...or stickied.

Also you aren't stupid for being desperate and in pain. That's why everyone who is here legitimately are here.

 

[Mizzmini45]

Yeah doesn't really work only with maybe the conjunction of another more successful method

 

[Jean4]

I can't answer your question. Just wanted to tell you that I love your avatar!!!

 

[k75]

First, what pills are you thinking of taking?

Unless they're a select few, they won't even work no matter what you do. But you could really hurt yourself and end up making your situation worse.

 

[crazy1]

Yeah doesn't really work only with maybe the conjunction of another more successful method

Yeah, maybe if it gets me so out of it that I don't care I might be able to do something.

I can't answer your question. Just wanted to tell you that I love your avatar!!!

Thanks, I drew it myself a few months ago. Kind of like art therapy I guess.

First, what pills are you thinking of taking?

Unless they're a select few, they won't even work no matter what you do. But you could really hurt yourself and end up making your situation worse.

I was going to take sleeping pills with DPH, I read that 2500ml is enough to kill me so I got abit more than that. Then I was planning on walking out into the countryside to take it so maybe if it doesn't work hyperthermia might help me along the way.

 

[seafarer]

If you did almost everything right and planned it overdosing on and prescription meds is almost impossible ,I am not clear Nd what you would be usinfniniust answered about you can use ant such meds butnifnyounate think I'll just take a hole box ofnthesenit never worjsnunkessnth person as an underlying and often unknown medical issue. The mesanum taking just tonight would have put a horse down yetnhereninam talking to you. The best thing you can donis go tonseqch function and just read thrubitnall and then read read thru people's posts here and you will seen ,one it isn't as its portrated in movies and 2 you will find the pros and cons of every method and by that time you may have realisednlifenis worthnliveling andnitngets better or I'd not you now posses he true potential tommakenan informed and none split second reactionary death that serves no purpose only to hurt someone else emotionless who has hurt you and giving them that power isnanmajornlack in judgment as if they reared you that mad the last thing they deserve is the sick pleasure they would get out of knowing that secretely they had such a hold oversomeone they didn't even care about.

I'm not saying this applies 100% to you situation but don't do anything impulsive and read and learn from this site and at end of it there will be 2 paths and only you can choose which but no matter what you will always have the support of this forumnas it isn't that we want you to ctb what we want if for you to have all the questions answered and when the time comes you will just instinctively know after reading other people lives and struggles does help with perspective on things

Again not cheapening your pain like a pain chart does because everyone is effec

 

[needtogo]

Only ODs that would be fairly reliable would be F and maybe H. Most drugs made today are "safe" as in they'll give you fucked up side effects but they won't directly kill you.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

The only way I feel comfortable CBT right now is through overdose and I know I can hide it if it doesn't go right so I can always have another go or try something different at another point.
But, when I overdose I'm always sick when I take it and I struggle just to swallow them all, so it never properly works because I throw up a lot of the tablets before they have time to kill me....

.... I just really want it to work ....

There was actually a recent post very similar to this in that the person was only comfortable with ODing, it hadn't worked in the past, and they wanted it to work.

I didn't comment on that thread because I didn't know how to share my observations and concern without sounding like a judgmental asshole. I very much care. Maybe this time I can say it in a way that demonstrates both the compassion and logic that motivate me to respond.

The issue that troubles my heart is the wanting, and moving forward based on the want rather than accepting the evidence that the method doesn't work for you in spite of the wanting. It's like returning to a rigged slot machine and hoping this time it will pay out with a jackpot. Instead of money, you pay with your physical and emotional health. It seems like you're saying here, but maybe if this time I pull the arm in a certain way, or feed the coins in a certain order, the slot machine will at last do what I want.

I cannot offer an alternative solution, and it would be hubris to try to analyze your attraction to the slot machine or to judge your readiness or non-readiness to ctb. All I can offer is what I've noticed in case you need to notice it as well.

Sending empathy and compassion.