Help Need help with figuring out a method, with restrictions

[lovely956]

Hi. I've been thinking about all this, and I'm finally ready to end it. Ideally, I would use SN or an inert gas, but I live in an apartment in Chicago with my mom. Because of my history with mental health and SI, my mom keeps a close eye on me and everything I do, including my bank statements. I'm almost positive that she would find out if I ever buy something online. Because I live in Chicago, I've been thinking about CTBing by train, but I worry about traumatizing other people, and I would only use this method if I really needed it. Anyway, please let me know some suggestions of CTB methods that yall have.

Thanks,
Sydney

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be gone, I'm always wishing for the option to just painlessly die in peace but anyway I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for, I wish you the best.