Csmith8827
Don't you listen to your heart? (Listen to it...)
- Oct 26, 2019
- 872
The voices are tormenting me really bad and I don't know what to do. I went to the emergency room last night because I drank and smoked pot but when I woke up after smoking the pot I just felt off. Like it intensified the voices or something. I've had issues with them in the past and I used to try not to smoke weed back then because I noticed it just intensified them as well...so step 1 is don't smoke weed which I haven't done in other 6months I was just caught off guard by this guy handing me a joint.
Anyway after getting to the ER I could still hear the voices. They just gave me a shot of gerodone? Or geradome? Or something.... anyway I got tired of just sitting in the ER so I left and then went outside to smoke. The voices were really intense and I didn't know how I was going to deal with it.
This is what hit me hardest. The voice tormenting the most is my mom's. Her voice keeps persecuting me. It reminded me of the idea of this "alien abortion" which is a reference to the final boss fight in the game Mother (also known as Earthbound). The creator of the game said the way he looks at the final boss fight against giygas is like it's some sort of alien abortion.
I think my mom is trying to kill me or something. Like she wants me dead and tormenting me is her way of doing it.
This is all supernatural stuff and as I was walking home the sounds from the cars on the highway were kinda comforting because they drove out the sound of the voices for a minute but I was too out of it from the medication to walk all the way back to my mom's house.
I eventually ordered a Lyft and before they got there I contemplated going to the top of building and jumping off. I eventually fell to my knees and asked God to please take the voices away and that I would repent etc...
I eventually got home and told my mom what was going on. I was pretty out of it but layed on the couch with her. She put on a YouTube video of someone reading from Bible Scripture with the verses on the screen. Somehow the voices stopped and I was able to sleep. I woke up in the middle of the night and they were still quiet.
I went to my room and they were still semi-quiet but eventually I started to hear them again.
I read some Bible Scripture and I'm writing this post now.
I was wondering how long SN takes to get from DMC? This might be my time to go. I don't know. I have more than enough money to have it overnighted. Do they have overnight shipping? Or express shipping? I have the source for SN from SS but I haven't tested it and I don't know how many people have ctb from it. I don't know how long there shipping takes either.
If someone could pm me the source for DMC, a source for meto, and a source for proponolol or however you spell it I'd greatly appreciate it. I am in the United States of that helps.
I just don't know how long I can deal with these voices or how bad there gonna get. They've been tormenting me pretty bad... even when I'm at work so like... yeah it may be my time to CTB.
They weren't this bad at all in the past but ever since I've been saving money to move out/accumulating money they've gotten crazy. Like the past week/ week and a half it's gotten bad. Last night was just unbearable. I'm going to go to church on Sunday and see if maybe that helps.
To me I believe it's a God thing and I'm being tormented by this being. Could someone please let me know about the shipping?
I don't know what to do and CTB might just be the best thing I can do. Thanks for listening. Didn't mean to make such a long post.
Anyway after getting to the ER I could still hear the voices. They just gave me a shot of gerodone? Or geradome? Or something.... anyway I got tired of just sitting in the ER so I left and then went outside to smoke. The voices were really intense and I didn't know how I was going to deal with it.
This is what hit me hardest. The voice tormenting the most is my mom's. Her voice keeps persecuting me. It reminded me of the idea of this "alien abortion" which is a reference to the final boss fight in the game Mother (also known as Earthbound). The creator of the game said the way he looks at the final boss fight against giygas is like it's some sort of alien abortion.
I think my mom is trying to kill me or something. Like she wants me dead and tormenting me is her way of doing it.
This is all supernatural stuff and as I was walking home the sounds from the cars on the highway were kinda comforting because they drove out the sound of the voices for a minute but I was too out of it from the medication to walk all the way back to my mom's house.
I eventually ordered a Lyft and before they got there I contemplated going to the top of building and jumping off. I eventually fell to my knees and asked God to please take the voices away and that I would repent etc...
I eventually got home and told my mom what was going on. I was pretty out of it but layed on the couch with her. She put on a YouTube video of someone reading from Bible Scripture with the verses on the screen. Somehow the voices stopped and I was able to sleep. I woke up in the middle of the night and they were still quiet.
I went to my room and they were still semi-quiet but eventually I started to hear them again.
I read some Bible Scripture and I'm writing this post now.
I was wondering how long SN takes to get from DMC? This might be my time to go. I don't know. I have more than enough money to have it overnighted. Do they have overnight shipping? Or express shipping? I have the source for SN from SS but I haven't tested it and I don't know how many people have ctb from it. I don't know how long there shipping takes either.
If someone could pm me the source for DMC, a source for meto, and a source for proponolol or however you spell it I'd greatly appreciate it. I am in the United States of that helps.
I just don't know how long I can deal with these voices or how bad there gonna get. They've been tormenting me pretty bad... even when I'm at work so like... yeah it may be my time to CTB.
They weren't this bad at all in the past but ever since I've been saving money to move out/accumulating money they've gotten crazy. Like the past week/ week and a half it's gotten bad. Last night was just unbearable. I'm going to go to church on Sunday and see if maybe that helps.
To me I believe it's a God thing and I'm being tormented by this being. Could someone please let me know about the shipping?
I don't know what to do and CTB might just be the best thing I can do. Thanks for listening. Didn't mean to make such a long post.