astrichaoz
And if I were someone else, would this be easier?
- Apr 15, 2024
- 27
My head is a fucking mess right now and I need somewhere to dump this and also get feedback. So I didn't plan to kill myself until March, March 13th, I decided. I want to wait for the holidays to past and for my brother's birthday to pass as well. However, i don't think I can wait that long. I'm considering going out in November. I can't do it. I just don't think I can. Is it selfish of me to be doing it sooner? I know doing this would probably ruin the holidays for everyone but I just can't keep holding on and waiting. Its so much pain. And I'm so tired. I know noone can really make this choice for me as it is my decision and mine alone, but some personal opinions or views would be helpful please, maybe I can sort out what I'm going to do. Thanks.