name two things that makes it hard to live your life | recovery

[WornOutLife]

My bipolar disorder and inconstancy!

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

My chronic pain and illness.
There is nothing here for me, my future will be hopeless in many ways.

 

[Hirokami]

Only two things? Damn.

If I have to choose, then being always broke and having depression is definitely making it a lot harder to want to go on.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Eating disorder... 99% of my day is thinking how I don't have to eat and how I want stop that, but still don't want.
Chronic pain. Never know how bad day will be, mostly neuralgia.

Edit. I noticed that I already answered earlier, well now my answer is different I see :P Don't sure if it's good or bad thing.

 

[luten]

Eating disorder... 99% of my day is thinking how I don't have to eat and how I want stop that, but still don't want.
Chronic pain. Never know how bad day will be, mostly neuralgia.

Edit. I noticed that I already answered earlier, well now my answer is different I see :P Don't sure if it's good or bad thing.

thanks for your response. I also live with chronic pain, it is hard.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

1. Nobody loves me.
2. I love nobody.

 

[SadGirl]

At the moment it is being my break up with my ex girlfriend. Depression, anxiety, panic, nothing goes right in my life.

1. Nobody loves me.
2. I love nobody.

Worse if you loved, you would suffer. I would like to not love anyone.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

Worse if you loved, you would suffer. I would like to not love anyone.

You are right. Love makes humans vulnerable.

 

[netrezven]

Holidays and any not working days
Meetings with relatives
Gossiping
Envy
Stupid people
jealousy
Lies /just make me little sad, got used to that long long time ago/
Someone fake playing the victim
Complaining without accepting or looking for a solution
Guilt transfered to others
Living regular life and hate on those who wanna have fun
Manipulation
Not accepting other's opinions
Not accepting others when different
Complying with all the stupid rules and laws and morally demanding this to others
Pretending to comply with those laws and rules
Hiding behind the mask of the good citizen, living for sociaty, while cheating on your loved one and abusing your family.
Cowards
Corruption
I can go on forever with this. Found solutions to almost all of those problems. Still working on that holiday stuff.

 

[Shadowrider]

If we are supposed to mention only two:
1.) Being traumatized as f*ck and my brain forcing me to think about nothing but the painful memories. No matter how hard I try, I can hardly thing about anything else.
2.) Unemployment. Cannot even force myself to try to find a job because I couldn't face another "Thank you for your interest but you suck, we have many other candidates who are so much better than you" kind of answer. I have no searched profession as they pointed at it (and yes, I suck because hearing "It's much easier for people with searched professions" should have made me more confident and focus on my positive sides). No profession at all. Would like to make myself useful but I am a worthless POS who is not good enough to clean the toilets or do the dishes.

 

[FuneralCry]

Chronic physical health problems.
My mental state: depressive thoughts/anhedonia

 

[BlankUser]

Ocd,
Depression,
Social anxiety,
Death of family members,
Animal cruelty,
Physical pain,
Lack of money,
Weight gain,
Addiction,
Lack of support,
No job/career,
Mistakes in life

 

[NeuroDamaged3]

(under control with benzo) Akathesia
(under control with benzo) Anxiety
Anhedonia
PSSD + complete lack of libido/romance
Emotionally numb
Memory Issues
TBI
No energy, mostly bedbound
No friends IRL
Few friends online
etc

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

1. loss of happiness
2. feeling that I fucked up my life

 

[almaranthine]

* unrequited love which drove me to accept destructive, abusive, all around bad, bad relationships because I figured I must deserve to suffer and no decent, genuine person would love me anyhow.
* failing out of college despite working for years (through high school) to build up credits and scholarships, an unfinished degree which leaves me forced to accept a very poor credit score and entry level retail or office jobs

 

[GrumpyFrog]

1) Financial issues that I am unable to escape because of medical expenses related to a permanent health condition
2) No friends, or any other kind of a social support network

 

[Sinai Silence]

1. Anhedonia making me feel like everything I do is pointless.
2. Loss of loved ones.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Sense that all is for nothing , confirmed by many decades of seeing that play out in reality for others

Operating under global paradigms that involve enriching the unaccountable and evil

 

[whywere]

1) 24/7 massive chronic pain, whole right side of body, top of head to right toe
2) Hellish deep depression
Walter

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

* humiliation.
* I've lost that spark and it never returned I think they call it depression.

 

[Less_Negative]

I can't really think of only two, sorry.
-Paranoia
-Shame
-Extreme and shameful sexual fetishes/impulses
-Fear of acting on those sexual impulses and harming others
-Lack of control of myself
-Lack of joy in life
-Lack of direction in life

 

[Querry1]

My parents, depression

 

[articledon]

1. entire family (Father, Mother and Sister) have all passed away recently leaving me as the only one alive 2. being a introvert, I never felt I was made for this thing they call life

 

[whywere]

1. entire family (Father, Mother and Sister) have all passed away recently leaving me as the only one alive 2. being a introvert, I never felt I was made for this thing they call life

HI! Having 3 family members pass away is really sad to hear. When I read your post @articledon it made me cry as far as having that huge of a loss so quickly. Please try and remember that you have your global family here, including me!, that loves and cares for you. I really care about you and send you lots of hugs and plenty of bright and sunny days to help you! Walter

 

[articledon]

HI! Having 3 family members pass away is really sad to hear. When I read your post @articledon it made me cry as far as having that huge of a loss so quickly. Please try and remember that you have your global family here, including me!, that loves and cares for you. I really care about you and send you lots of hugs and plenty of bright and sunny days to help you! Walter

Thank you Walter...yeah it's rough...you know how much i respect you...appreciate the kind words friend

 

[everydayiloveyou]

1. Social anxiety disorder
2. Being poor

 

[granolabar]

The two biggest at the moment are:
1.) being forced into eating disorder recovery when I don't want it
2.) feeling like a complete failure in life

 

[PoofLoop:P]

Please be specific, "I hate myself", "i feel worthless" is not specific enough.

You may have many reasons, but this is about the top two.


Examples ;

Depression
Anxiety
Addiction
Chronic Pain
Terminal Illness
PTSD
Eating Disorder
Obesity
Appearances
Criminal Records
Money Issues
No friends
No job
Lost of a love one
Co

1. I feel like I'm completely misunderstood, and can't really relate to most people. I know this sounds really narcissistic (and I hate that it does), but sometimes I feel like I'm surrounded by idiots, or at least at the very least people who are just not in tune or paying attention/aware of themselves, by fault or no fault of their own.

2. I feel like I always go out of my way to point out my own flaws, and desperately try to fix them quickly while other people take advantage of that, or try to make me feel as if it's my fault for their issues, or for telling them that they play some part in the conflict as well.

In my opinion it takes two, to create a conflict. So to dump all the reposiblitity on one person just isn't fair. I just feel upset whenever something like this happens because meanwhile while I'm thinking over and revaluating my attitude, words, actions, body language etc. The other person I'm having issues with can be sitting there like the fat pig they are, lying to my face without any hesitation, eating chips every hour, childish, dancing, laughing with their friends, with no goals in life, handed everything on a sliver platter (sorry about the tang, I have a specific person in mind) without feeling any remorse what so ever for the pain they've inflicted on me, or without having taken any responsibility for themselves.

Honestly this annoys me so much.

Please be specific, "I hate myself", "i feel worthless" is not specific enough.

You may have many reasons, but this is about the top two.


Examples ;

Depression
Anxiety
Addiction
Chronic Pain
Terminal Illness
PTSD
Eating Disorder
Obesity
Appearances
Criminal Records
Money Issues
No friends
No job
Lost of a love one
Co

These past few years I just got fed up with my life.
Lonely, poor, no perspective. Hate the idea of getting old and probably losing my independence and my good health.
And now The Great Reset, this is really freaking me out
The world has gone absolutely, totally mad, we're gonna be taken over, life will be horrible.
So that's only speeding up my plans!

I get what you mean, it's horrible! It makes me depressed everyday just thinking about, but more so that I'm not in the position significantly do anything about it...

 

[siff]

Lost of my loved ones

 

[Simba]

1. My autism.. not once was i ever told that its oks to be different etc.. instead looking at me as someone or something that needs fixing.. i was told that i can be myself but thered be a price to pay..

2. Stuff that happened in my past.. im cant get past what has happened to me ,feels sad that im unable to tell the truth to my parents ,since i half said it when in primary school but then just lied so i feel really bad for all that.. i just feel like that my family would disown me if i were to tell them.. I'll never be free from all this

3. Food problems.. is not really a problem for me perse but i feel like is a bit of a problem for others.. you cant eat in every restaurant you want cause you have to make sure the restaurant will have something for Simba (me) .. that and when i was in social group some years ago when was in a party they went "yuck i dont get you" when i explained to them..

4. Skin picking disorder.. on the one hand i want to stop scratching but on the other hand.. is like as if i like doing it i don't know.. seems my family is affected by this ,eg mammy constantly tells me to stop scratching myself etc.. when i usetoo work at 1 point the head of cashiers came up to me and said that my cuts/scars on my hands were bothering some of customers and offered me a pair of gloves.. from that day on id come to work with both my hands bandaged so i had customers ask me about it etc.. before doing that customers barely noticed..

5. Chrones Disease.. i would take longer in the toilet doing poo during work (from time to time) and the manpower there did not like it at all.. even when i clocked out to do my toilet it still bothered her.. resulted in her telling me stuff etc etc and that im not taking a pill to sort the problem etc.. so i fired myself ,this leads me to believe that probability of a place hiring me is close to nill at this point..

Thats all for now