Shame
Guilt
Envy
Think im narcissist
Think im psyco
Sadness
Frustration
Anger
Foolishness
Unwise
Burden on family
Social anxiety
No energy
Struggle to eat,wash,get up
Can't work
Don't know how to make everything better
Life of sin, payback time
Distressing thoughts of harming others
Reasons find it hard to ctb. Fear of failure again as Been in psych ward 5 times and can't hack that again. Glorified prison. Don't want family distressed as tried 3 times to ctb before. if I succeed. No win situation. I got people who rely on me including my beautiful daughter. Its gut wrenching agony. Thanks for listening. Just wanted to get this off my chest. Been like this 4 years now every day. Had bouts of it for 6 months and 9 months in my twenties. This is the killer episode though. Used all my might to recover then but 45 now and it been 4 years of pure hell.
Guilt
Envy
Think im narcissist
Think im psyco
Sadness
Frustration
Anger
Foolishness
Unwise
Burden on family
Social anxiety
No energy
Struggle to eat,wash,get up
Can't work
Don't know how to make everything better
Life of sin, payback time
Distressing thoughts of harming others
Reasons find it hard to ctb. Fear of failure again as Been in psych ward 5 times and can't hack that again. Glorified prison. Don't want family distressed as tried 3 times to ctb before. if I succeed. No win situation. I got people who rely on me including my beautiful daughter. Its gut wrenching agony. Thanks for listening. Just wanted to get this off my chest. Been like this 4 years now every day. Had bouts of it for 6 months and 9 months in my twenties. This is the killer episode though. Used all my might to recover then but 45 now and it been 4 years of pure hell.
