Method My suicide plan

[Hangman.]

I am sharing my plan here in hopes of receiving constructive criticism to improve it. Any help with information regarding my misunderstanding and inaccuracies is greatly appreciated as I will ask some questions that came up in my mind.

After a lot of thinking, I have decided to hang myself because my options for suicide methods are limited.

In the categories of hanging:
(i) Partial suspension, (ii) Full suspension, (iii) Drop
Full suspension seems to be the best option for me. After hearing various negative stories about partial, I am comfortable discarding the idea of partial suspension. Drop hanging where we aim to fracture c2 vertebrae needs precise calculations and is deeply unreliable and unpredictable. These factors, combined with my circumstances and preferences, makes this category unfavorable. That's why I am sticking to full suspension for now.

Type of rope:

My plan will be conducted after a few months. For that reason I don't have lists of specific ropes roaming in my mind. This will vary in the future. As for the characteristics, I have settled on Double Braided Static Polyester (10 mm). I prefer the width in the range of 10-12.5 mm and decided to choose the lowest in this range, 10 mm, since I am underweight. My choice of this range is for the reason that it is recommended by many researchers here and feels like a sensible option. This is the main thing I am not 100% certain about, so feel free to drop your own thoughts about the best width/what you have already chosen for your ctb. As for the material, polyester is in my favor because all the other options are either extremely costly or inferior to polyester for this method. Nylon is brought up many times in this forum and is a fair competitor to polyester. Nevertheless, I did not choose it because of its flexibility, which is discouraged in full suspension.

Type of knot:

Choosing which type of knot to use is not a hassle. Anything which is strong and constricts when pressure is exerted on the knot will do the job well. Out of all the choices I have, I think the optimal option will be to use a noose knot for the neck and a figure-eight follow-through knot combined with a stopper knot for the anchor point.

Placement of the knot:

At the occipital area. In my opinion, this is a simple and obvious choice. I want to put balanced and maximum pressure on the front of my neck to block carotid arteries properly.

Placement of the noose:

Out of all the positions, the area between the hyoid bone and the mandible seems the most vulnerable to me. It is not covered with strong tissue nor cartilage while containing an extremely critical structure packed in a small place. And most importantly, it is where the carotid sinus is located. (Carotid sinus is the place where carotid arteries divide into internal and external carotid arteries)

Anchor point:

I have a window grill installed inside my room which is supported by a concrete wall. This will obviously hold my weight with ease and because of this, I don't have to worry about going outside and finding a strong branch to hang on to.

A few questions of mine:

• I am going to stuff my mouth with a cloth to prevent my family from seeing that gross swelling in my mouth.
Are there any problematic side effects to this which will negatively affect my hanging?

• Is adding some external heavy objects on my body to increase the tension of the rope a good idea?

• In the section about hanging on the suicide wiki, my approach to the position of the noose is discouraged, and I am quite confused because, in my perspective this should be a sensible choice to reduce more pain and get unconscious quickly in comparison to other positions. Am I overlooking a vital detail here or is the research from wiki outdated?

 

[Hangman.]

Thanks to @JesiBel and @Evelyn Lane for sharing their knowledge, which made this possible.

 

[JesiBel]

I agree, of the three hanging categories, I would choose Full Suspension. By using your entire body weight, you won't need to worry about choosing a suitable body position where you exert more pressure. And since the body is no longer in contact with the ground, there is no going back.

A 10 mm braided static polyester rope it's a good option. For more flexibility and easier knot tying, look for a rope without an internal core. (For example, Kernmantle ropes are usually stiff, they wouldn't be a good choice)
The surface of synthetic and braided (not twisted) ropes is smooth and facilitates the sliding of the self-tightening knot.

For the ligature knot, the simplest is the Arbor Knot; it slides well and has a knot at the free end, which makes it more secure. Behind the neck, in the center, it is well located.

Regarding the anchor point (window grill), always remember to test it. Even if it seems firm and strong, it's always best to be sure. You can tie the rope to it and try hanging from it with your hands and swinging a little; everything should stay in place without deforming, breaking, or making strange noises when it is supporting your weight. For knots at the anchor point you can consider: Anchor hitch knot, Bowline knot (remember to always add a stopper knot to the free end; it will make them even more secure)

To avoid shocking your family, perhaps you could use a cloth face mask, like the ones seen during the pandemic. It will cover almost half of the face, and will not allow the protruding tongue or saliva to be seen, which sometimes happens in cases of hanging.

Adding some external heavy objects on the body to increase the tension of the rope.. I don't see it as necessary; even young girls with small body structure have successfully CTB. I read that you were underweight, but... is it "extreme"? You know, many people here also have eating disorders.

Regarding the position of the ligature (rope), it goes under the jaw. More or less at the height of the Hyoid Bone, which is above of the Adam's apple (laryngeal prominence).
The knot behind the neck in the center will cause the tension to concentrate on the front of the neck.
With the help of the self-tightening knot, the rope will penetrate deep into the neck because your suspended body is being pulled downwards by gravity. The Arbor Knot will be firmly and steadily compressing the arteries, veins, and airway. It will encircle your entire neck evenly, exerting continuous pressure.

In these threads I had attached some photos of the ligature position in real cases:

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Self-tightening knot (hanging forensic photos) vs Fixed knot, carotid arteries, ligature position, pre-adjusting the ligature around the neck

Compression of the ligature positioned under the jaw + Self-tightening knot (forensic photo), pressure

Ligature position, drawing + forensic photo showing the neck furrow from rope

Ligature position + reference drawing with neck anatomy