my suicide letter

[kaitekat23]

so because my brother continues to mysteriously find my letters, i have mine written in my phone now.
this is what it says:

dear whoever may be reading this,

hi, I don't know how else to begin this. i was doing okay for a while. i mean it. i was doing okay despite the constant urges and guilt but otherwise, I was doing okay.
the more i struggled, the more it became clear. this world is too harsh. this world is cold. i am just not strong enough to carry out this life, and for that i am so sorry. i am sorry having to put this selfish choice of mine on to you. the guilt and the pain you may feel. i may never know wheather my death affected you or not. i am unsure of what may be on the other side, or whether heaven or hell is real. i don't know where i am going. but i know it'll be more warm than the cold world i escaped. the constant torment of bullying and abuse that paraded my life. i am sure i no longer know pain.
i hope that your heart heals. that you find comfort in knowing i'm no longer suffering.
this letter will find you soon, and likely more.
i plan on CTB sometime in the next few weeks. still here

 

[IWishToDie]

Tell them that you will always be looking over them. Many survivors who are left behind turn to religion for strength, even if you think it's all bullsh*t or if you're just agnostic or whatever, leave them that at least. It will be a long future for them without you. Best of luck, friend.