My suicide is selfish.

[lovelulu]

I firmly believe suicide isn't selfish, no matter what, but I think mine is. I have a perfectly happy life. No problems. Parents are happily married, I have good friends, etc. But despite all of that, im still an ungrateful piece of shit who wants to die. I have no reason to kill myself. I know my freinds and family care about me but i can't bring myself to let that to not ctb. The only problem i have in life is myself—but even that isn't a good enough reason for me to kill myself. Im so selfish.

 

[ICan’tSeeTheLight]

I don't know you or your situation, but I do know that you didn't have any reason to want to CTB then you wouldn't feel like you had to. Even if it looks like you have a good life in comparison to others doesn't mean that you need to feel good about it. It doesn't make you selfish

 

[meatballlover]

The fact that you dont enjoy life is enough of an justification. The fact that your mind is conflicting like this is enough of an proof that you suffer in life, even if you have a loving family and friends. Your feelings are valid and it is not your fault. Pain is not a competion remember that.

 

[bugunmasked]

i'm in a similar boat. i have so much support & love in my life but being forced to work a job that is unfulfilling, & being trans in an increasingly hostile world doesn't help, either. if life is going to be like this (or even worse) in the next few years, IDK if i'm gonna be able to deal with it. and i can't tell anyone because i will be institutionalized & lose my job, which would fuck my husband over & make it harder to pay bills. i feel like i'm stuck in a torturous cycle of meaningless bullshit.

 

[SASU-KE]

How are you selfish when it's your life in question? You're suffering a great deal and you want it to stop.It's no different for me. I have a good life myself, but I suffer endlessly.It's how we're built. It's not our fault.

 

[meddle]

that may be depression. i know life sucks, buddy. sorry for dumb question, but have you tried getting help? your parents and friends will help you gladly. they will be more willing to help you than to mourn you for sure