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butterfly3

butterfly3

Student
Apr 2, 2022
119
It would be really lovely if someone read this whole thing, but I understand if not as i know that it will be a fairly long post.
I haven't been on this site for a month now.
I'm really unhappy about my package being lost because.
1. when I ordered it, I wanted to have SN near me whenever I need it. Like I wouldn't want to not have it on the day I've planned for. Now that I'm attempting recovery, I would like to be able to have the satisfaction and control of being able to dispose of the SN if I really want to.
2. I really dont want it to have ended up in the wrong house and in the wrong hands, that would be a disaster. If something goes wrong, I think I be the one to blame for ordering it in the first place as well as the delivery service for not posting the package correctly. I don't think Iwould be able to deal with that kind of guilt. If anything I hope its just at the bottom of a pile of other lost packages in the delivery service headquarters or something.

I've given up on trying to find sources of SN, as I have like 6 failed attempts at buying it, most companies cancelling the order, this one losing my order.
I'm now trying to recover as I did attempt a month ago without SN and ended up in hospital for about 2 1/2 days and I saw how much it broke my parents and brother. In fact, my dad got really stressed when he saw me taking allergy tablets today, thinking it was something else which made me really sad.
Because school is finished (even though I know I did terribly in my final exams) I'm trying to take this time to work on my mental health and suicidal thoughts, even though its really difficult. I think my parents are also trying to help me find some sort of therapist or counsellor. It feels nice to finally have my parents take my mental health seriously and be compassionate, even though I wish it didnt have to have come to this point.

Anyways, has anybody else had their SN lost in delivery too? I contacted the delivery service but they never got back to me. I'm not getting a refund, but that's not even my main concern, I just dont want the wrong person to get their hands on it and potentially ingest it.
 
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HopefulButPrepared

HopefulButPrepared

Experienced
Jun 22, 2022
247
I can never understand how things get lost in transit. The driver must have a pretty big gap down the back of his van seat for all those packages to fall down.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,206
Nobody is going to ingest it. That's just paranoia. I'm sorry you haven't got your package yet. I know this must be upsetting. Just try not to overthink it and take a break for a while. Sounds like you are exhausted.
 
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