My SN arrived than earlier.

[Notcatchingthebusbe]

Thought my SN would take 2 weeks but took a week to arrive, arrived way earlier than expected. When the post arrived, I just knew what it was immediately and started crying. I'm very ready to CTB but I promised I'd stay around for the plans this weekend, and the temptation to go right now, is real. I don't know what to do. I've been wanting this for so long, but im scared to. The thought of my last day can happen, at any moment in a instant. I'm ready, but I don't like the idea of my family suffering. Ever feel like you wish you could get their approval? I still yet need to write letters. Do I write letters or do I, just go.

 

[jodes2]

I tried to get my family's approval, mixed success but I'm glad I talked to them about it, it lightens the load

 

[FuneralCry]

Only you know if you should write letters or not, I believe it to be a personal decision. I would write one to act as an form of closure for those left behind. I feel as though in a lot of cases it would be difficult to get our decision to ctb approved by others. Many people simply could never understand our point of view as they cannot see life the same way, and others selfishly wouldn't want to lose those close to them to suicide so they are unable to respect suicide as a decision.

But yes, it would certainly be for the best to be able to get approval from others and be able to have open discussions about our decision to ctb without all the stigma and secrecy associated with it. After all we will all die someday eventually and there's nothing wrong with choosing to exit for when the time is right for us. But at least you have the option of SN right there so you can leave when you wish, I would personally be relieved if I had it, I wish you the best.