my SI is acting up and im not sure how to process this one

[emma99]

Okay so i had made a post earlier about trying to write an indirect email,
so that i can say good by to some old friends. but here is the problem.

As many people on this site know well life can be awful hard and lonely
and it breaks my heart that the one good friend I have
to them I am their one good friend.

They were there when i had my last failed attempt
and asked me to never do it again as they
would be left without their only friend.

I thought i would be okay with the indirect email,
but its very difficult. they are also going through
a hard time at the moment and i'm worried
how the news will effect them

 

[INeedMethodForCTB]

You gotta prioritise one thing if this feels like a burden to you then you prob shouldn't suicide but if you are tired of living for someone else's sake then maybe rethink their importance

One way of decision making I like to do is bet on roulette if you want u could bet nothing and just go with the results for ex black = suicide and red = carry on and if u 100% certain on suiciding if it lands black then just go all in red either u 2x your money and get to rethink or you can be 100% sure that u got nothing left to lose but only this as a last resort

Okay so i had made a post earlier about trying to write an indirect email,
so that i can say good by to some old friends. but here is the problem.

As many people on this site know well life can be awful hard and lonely
and it breaks my heart that the one good friend I have
to them I am their one good friend.

They were there when i had my last failed attempt
and asked me to never do it again as they
would be left without their only friend.

I thought i would be okay with the indirect email,
but its very difficult. they are also going through
a hard time at the moment and i'm worried
how the news will effect them