Venting My school bully is living the life I wanted

[Obliviate]

As I get closer to CTB I started reminiscing about school days and he popped up in my mind. Wanting to see just exactly how cruel life is, continuing indeed to be true about horrible people going on to live successful lives.

Now he wasn't the worst bully but enough to make serious lasting impacts. I found out about a couple years ago that he allegedly partook in indirect molestation of one of our mutuals/his best friend that occurred while we were in school. He would body shame, harass, make insensitive racial remarks with his horrible group of bullies.


People would joke all the time that he and I would end up together because he would pick on me and I would fire back. Bickering back and forth. He was the obnoxious popular athletic intelligent jock that every girl had a crush on and I was the shy awkward autistic girl. The typical lame ass cringy teen movie trope.

He's now a medical student at the university that I wanted to go to in the field of medicine that I wanted. That was suppose to be MINE. Fuck this. It states he cares about patient care and ethics.

Oh and get this, he used to work at a suicide prevention hotline as a counselor, then a supervisor and then worked his way up to a manager while I actively am going crazy trying to find ways to Ctb. And I can't even find a job. I have always been far more intelligent, capable, kind, empathetic and over all a better person.

He went back to our high school and became a teacher's assistant for special education but he used to bully me and others for our awkward neurodivergent tendencies. Mock and laugh at us.

The world will always revolve around white males.

So the person that bullied/belittled me and many others, gets to use his MANY privileges, work in a crises center trying to prevent people from CTBing and then goes to becoming a doc and allegedly "caring" about patients? while people exactly like him are the ones making people wanna Ctb. We see this time and time again of evil privileged people becoming docs for the status and wealth just to abuse the system and be negligent to patient and staff.

What a fucking joke. This earth is a circus.
He's probably the typical
racist, MAGA, frat boy grapist.

Honestly, even if he has "changed" I don't give a fuck. He doesn't deserve it. I hope he's miserable as a doc. You know what, I hope he becomes a Doc, congratuFUCKINGlations piece of shit.
I hope all the realizations of how shit and horrible being a doc is hits him 100 fold. I hope he suffers. The same reasons I quit.

Or maybe he'll be the one that constantly engages in medical malpractice and negligence. Or maybe he'll be joyful to serve the patients who are child grapists, PDFs, racists, grapists, misogynists, abusers etc while being a slave to the Hippocratic oath.

I am so INCREDIBLY happy I never proceeded with my plans to become a doc. I would have hated it and been miserable wanting to Ctb even more.

I swear if he ends up becoming my bullshit "soulmate" in the after life because the universe is actually funny and cruel like that, I'll find a way to CTB in the after life as well. Just leave me be with my cats for fuck sakes.

This world is going to lose a brilliant mind. I would have been a great doc, a great scientist. I could have saved so many lives, created cures, treated with kindness and empathy. Now, my ethics are the complete opposite, I want humanity to suffer and die. They don't deserve me. I'm going to gatekeep my brilliant mind. Fuck humanity and fuck humans. Humans deserve to rot in the filth they created. I hope we all fall to our demise.

I'm almost there.

 

[WrathfulGloom32]

Being good isn't requirement for these fields unfortunately, many shitty people are working in medicine, I know many successful people that are awful people a lot from my family actually, doctors, pharmacists, uni teachers, programmers, normal teachers; they all mask how shitty they are beneath. That doesn't mean I can't call them out, life is not a "game" you shouldn't get rewarded or not punished for "keeping yourself in check" , assholes are assholes regardless of how they present themselves, our society doesn't care. If they keep themselves in check and keep the "beast" away , they're fine to society.

 

[fedup1982]

Fuck life

 

[heldbyone]

Worst kind of ppl wirk in medical/ healthcare field most are cheaters . Money hungry and narcissistic im not surprised

 

[Obliviate]

Being good isn't requirement for these fields unfortunately, many shitty people are working in medicine, I know many successful people that are awful people a lot from my family actually, doctors, pharmacists, uni teachers, programmers, normal teachers; they all mask how shitty they are beneath. That doesn't mean I can't call them out, life is not a "game" you shouldn't get rewarded or not punished for "keeping yourself in check" , assholes are assholes regardless of how they present themselves, our society doesn't care. If they keep themselves in check and keep the "beast" away , they're fine to society.

Thank you, an actually comprehensive reply. This is spot on. Many see this trend quite a bit of "rich entitled" kids having the pathway for them carved when all they have to do is volunteer at some underprivileged clinic for a bit, being satisfactory enough on the emotional side of being a doc to go on and become just vile to the system.

Worst kind of ppl wirk in medical/ healthcare field most are cheaters . Money hungry and narcissistic im not surprised

Absolutely. The wealth and life status attracts evil people like flies. They go on to be successful and then bully their subordinates and students who just want a chance.

 

[nool]

I'm so sorry. I wish life were like the movies, where the shitheads end up miserable and alone, but unfortunately the universe has no mercy on us. Wish nothing but the best for you

 

[Green_leaf]

It states he cares about patient care and ethics.

Because of similar things and people to those you describe, I can not spend too much time on LinkedIn without my blood starting to boil in anger.

 

[Obliviate]

I'm so sorry. I wish life were like the movies, where the shitheads end up miserable and alone, but unfortunately the universe has no mercy on us. Wish nothing but the best for you

Thank you for your words. Maybe that's why movies were created, as an escape from reality and life. Even if he has changed, I still wouldn't forgive him so easily.

Because of similar things and people to those you describe, I can not spend too much time on LinkedIn without my blood starting to boil in anger.

The fact that I literally saw this on his linkedin..........my blood boiled along with you.

 

[popcorn1234]

As I get closer to CTB I started reminiscing about school days and he popped up in my mind. Wanting to see just exactly how cruel life is, continuing indeed to be true about horrible people going on to live successful lives.

Now he wasn't the worst bully but enough to make serious lasting impacts. I found out about a couple years ago that he allegedly partook in indirect molestation of one of our mutuals/his best friend that occurred while we were in school. He would body shame, harass, make insensitive racial remarks with his horrible group of bullies.


People would joke all the time that he and I would end up together because he would pick on me and I would fire back. Bickering back and forth. He was the obnoxious popular athletic intelligent jock that every girl had a crush on and I was the shy awkward autistic girl. The typical lame ass cringy teen movie trope.

He's now a medical student at the university that I wanted to go to in the field of medicine that I wanted. That was suppose to be MINE. Fuck this. It states he cares about patient care and ethics.

Oh and get this, he used to work at a suicide prevention hotline as a counselor, then a supervisor and then worked his way up to a manager while I actively am going crazy trying to find ways to Ctb. And I can't even find a job. I have always been far more intelligent, capable, kind, empathetic and over all a better person.

He went back to our high school and became a teacher's assistant for special education but he used to bully me and others for our awkward neurodivergent tendencies. Mock and laugh at us.

The world will always revolve around white males.

So the person that bullied/belittled me and many others, gets to use his MANY privileges, work in a crises center trying to prevent people from CTBing and then goes to becoming a doc and allegedly "caring" about patients? while people exactly like him are the ones making people wanna Ctb. We see this time and time again of evil privileged people becoming docs for the status and wealth just to abuse the system and be negligent to patient and staff.

What a fucking joke. This earth is a circus.
He's probably the typical
racist, MAGA, frat boy grapist.

Honestly, even if he has "changed" I don't give a fuck. He doesn't deserve it. I hope he's miserable as a doc. You know what, I hope he becomes a Doc, congratuFUCKINGlations piece of shit.
I hope all the realizations of how shit and horrible being a doc is hits him 100 fold. I hope he suffers. The same reasons I quit.

Or maybe he'll be the one that constantly engages in medical malpractice and negligence. Or maybe he'll be joyful to serve the patients who are child grapists, PDFs, racists, grapists, misogynists, abusers etc while being a slave to the Hippocratic oath.

I am so INCREDIBLY happy I never proceeded with my plans to become a doc. I would have hated it and been miserable wanting to Ctb even more.

I swear if he ends up becoming my bullshit "soulmate" in the after life because the universe is actually funny and cruel like that, I'll find a way to CTB in the after life as well. Just leave me be with my cats for fuck sakes.

This world is going to lose a brilliant mind. I would have been a great doc, a great scientist. I could have saved so many lives, created cures, treated with kindness and empathy. Now, my ethics are the complete opposite, I want humanity to suffer and die. They don't deserve me. I'm going to gatekeep my brilliant mind. Fuck humanity and fuck humans. Humans deserve to rot in the filth they created. I hope we all fall to our demise.

I'm almost there.

He sounds like an awful person. People like him shouldn't be doctors. But, then, there are a lot of abusive and cruel people in the mental health profession, so I am not surprised he was able to become a doctor.

 

[A Dream of a Dream]

Worst kind of ppl wirk in medical/ healthcare field most are cheaters . Money hungry and narcissistic im not surprised

i think you mean business, finance and tech. doctors don't just walk into high paying jobs. medical school is not a cakewalk, not to mention residency. you don't become a full fledged doctor until 7-10yrs of schooling/clinical. the boards are not easy exams either.

the medical profession has also fallen to capitalism and do more with less (equals profits) is a common theme. consolidation continues and quotas are required of doctors. there's a nursing shortage because the workload is just too much. no work life balance. capitalism destroys everything, everything is commoditized, humans turned into dollars and cents.

this is not to say there aren't terrible people and even incompetent ones but certainly not all as a blanket generalization. that said i certainly wouldn't want to visit a maga doctor. and the field has had to reflect on its own biases and minimizing health problems of women and people of color. fuck those types.

 

[Obliviate]

He sounds like an awful person. People like him shouldn't be doctors. But, then, there are a lot of abusive and cruel people in the mental health profession, so I am not surprised he was able to become a doctor.

Absolutely Agree. This field attracts a lot of weirdos for sure. Just like how they say nursing attracts the mean girls.

i think you mean business, finance and tech. doctors don't just walk into high paying jobs. medical school is not a cakewalk, not to mention residency. you don't become a full fledged doctor until 7-10yrs of schooling/clinical. the boards are not easy exams either.

the medical profession has also fallen to capitalism and do more with less (equals profits) is a common theme. consolidation continues and quotas are required of doctors. there's a nursing shortage because the workload is just too much. no work life balance. capitalism destroys everything, everything is commoditized, humans turned into dollars and cents.

this is not to say there aren't terrible people and even incompetent ones but certainly not all as a blanket generalization. that said i certainly wouldn't want to visit a maga doctor. and the field has had to reflect on its own biases and minimizing health problems of women and people of color. fuck those types.

I'm not sure if your comments is regarding the "cheating" part but I genuinely wouldn't be surprised if these privileged rich fucks found a way to do so. I think there have been cases where students have been caught having someone else take board exams for them. Or sprinkle some money here some over there and your score gets magically boosted. Some under the table nonsense have for sure taken place.

I also just couldn't afford to go to med school because of this hyper capitilististic money hungry society that sets this up to lure in the rich and privileged while simultaneously eliminating the brilliant, poor, under represented minorities

 

[heldbyone]

i think you mean business, finance and tech. doctors don't just walk into high paying jobs. medical school is not a cakewalk, not to mention residency. you don't become a full fledged doctor until 7-10yrs of schooling/clinical. the boards are not easy exams either.

the medical profession has also fallen to capitalism and do more with less (equals profits) is a common theme. consolidation continues and quotas are required of doctors. there's a nursing shortage because the workload is just too much. no work life balance. capitalism destroys everything, everything is commoditized, humans turned into dollars and cents.

this is not to say there aren't terrible people and even incompetent ones but certainly not all as a blanket generalization. that said i certainly wouldn't want to visit a maga doctor. and the field has had to reflect on its own biases and minimizing health problems of women and people of color. fuck those types.

I worked in medical field and education as well all dr are piece of shit don't quote me on this

 

[popcorn1234]

Absolutely Agree. This field attracts a lot of weirdos for sure. Just like how they say nursing attracts the mean girls.

I'm not sure if your comments is regarding the "cheating" part but I genuinely wouldn't be surprised if these privileged rich fucks found a way to do so. I think there have been cases where students have been caught having someone else take board exams for them. Or sprinkle some money here some over there and your score gets magically boosted. Some under the table nonsense have for sure taken place.

I also just couldn't afford to go to med school because of this hyper capitilististic money hungry society that sets this up to lure in the rich and privileged while simultaneously eliminating the brilliant, poor, under represented minorities

I believe a lot of people who go into the mental health field are either unhealed or abusive or both.

 

[Obliviate]

I worked in medical field and education as well all dr are piece of shit don't quote me on this

It's sad because I would have been a great doc/scientist in terms of kindness/ empathy/ethics as well. Humans took that kindness and stepped on it so now I just call for the downfall of humanity. The good docs commit Ctb. The field is crazy high with suicide rates. I'm very glad I didn't pursue medical school, I was on my way to doing so then I thought there's no way I'm sacrificing my life for these parasitical humans. I wish we could refuse care to predators/abusers but that would mean no care for most humans.

I believe a lot of people who go into the mental health field are either unhealed or abusive or both.

It baffles me how humans will try their absolute hardest to obtain a high level education/degree just to abuse people.

 

[Zeir Anpin 729]

lol i was supposed to have graduated by now. thrown out of college. then thrown out of the army. i never did anything wrong. it is the system that keeps failing. but i always end up with the blame. all the losers that slacked off through high school and college are getting six figure jobs now. i worked so hard but was just SO FUCKING UNLUCKY I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE WHY ME

edit: oh and then after all this happened, a homeless motherfucker ambushed me on the street, swinging and trying to kill me. he hit me four times and i ended up in the hospital, now with a huge bill to pay off. and the attacker was never arrested. the cops made excuses on his behalf. the sheriff of austin texas is a professional p3dophile protector.

 

[Codename_Joryu]

The biggest lie ever made up by humanity is that "bullies go nowhere and smart kids become notable adults". Most of the time it's those bullies living the life they want and having a blast while those shy, introverted and awkward kids become bed rotting, hateful losers, that is unless they kill themselves first.

 

[Obliviate]

lol i was supposed to have graduated by now. thrown out of college. then thrown out of the army. i never did anything wrong. it is the system that keeps failing. but i always end up with the blame. all the losers that slacked off through high school and college are getting six figure jobs now. i worked so hard but was just SO FUCKING UNLUCKY I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE WHY ME

edit: oh and then after all this happened, a homeless motherfucker ambushed me on the street, swinging and trying to kill me. he hit me four times and i ended up in the hospital, now with a huge bill to pay off. and the attacker was never arrested. the cops made excuses on his behalf. the sheriff of austin texas is a professional p3dophile protector.

I hate this shitty fuck ass world. I'm so sorry what what you've gone through. The world has failed, not us. So most humans just must be horrible then. I really don't see any purpose in living.

At this point the justice system is put in place to protect ANY type of abuser, homeless or not. I believe unaliving your abuser is the only way especially for women. I would be in jail. You have incredible patience because I would have unalived that homeless bitch. I'm really not the one.

The biggest lie ever made up by humanity is that "bullies go nowhere and smart kids become notable adults". Most of the time it's those bullies living the life they want and having a blast while those shy, introverted and awkward kids become bed rotting, hateful losers, that is unless they kill themselves first.

100%. I went from being the kindest souls to a hateful bitch now who is a bed rotter who wants to kill my self. and it's all thanks to humans. I went from wanting to save/help them to wanting to end them. Even in death, I wanted to become a medical examiner hoping to bring victims to justice but I can't even do without aiding in corruption somehow since everything revolves round protecting demons no matter how much evidence you have.

I will say I don't think a lot of are losers. We were the hope and now we hope to bring destruction instead.

 

[LetMeOut67]

One of my bullies drank himself to death
I think some of them do get their comeuppance though not enough

 

[Obliviate]

One of my bullies drank himself to death
I think some of them do get their comeuppance though not enough

Thats awesome. May more of this occur. Even though in reality they are living lavish amazing lives. One of the reasons I want the after life to exist is for these monsters to get their eternal punishment

 

[Off_Switch]

I wish you could have brought yourself to become a more horrible person at some point, before it was too late. Only horrible people get rewarded in this dystopian world.

 

[divinemistress87]

I relate to this. A guy who is a doctor who I hung out with back in 2017 was drunk while we were up at a cabin and instead of giving me a ibuprofen for my headache he came up and adjusted my neck to hard , tore v artery in my neck sent blood clot to my brain. Ya I sued him but wasn't a lot and not worth the brain damage. He went on to open his own practice and seems to be doing well. Fuck them

 

[Obliviate]

I wish you could have brought yourself to become a more horrible person at some point, before it was too late. Only horrible people get rewarded in this dystopian world.

I sincerely thought this. What if I just become a bad person, I'll get rewarded. Right? But no matter how bad I want to be a "bad" person, I just became numb. I'll always protect children and animals but I've drawn my limit to that only. Even other women sicken me, such as the internal misogynists.

Jeffrey epstein lied about getting a degree, no one bothered to verify and he went on to become filthy rich, get access to incredible resources to grape children. But I need to feel guilty for stretching the truth a little on my resume? And ofcourse people will always go out of their way to prosecute the little people.

The "worst" I've been able to do was shit on despicable humans and gatekeep my brilliant mind refusing to participate in the evolution of humans. We're surrounded by NPC players and it's eerie. They don't exist yet somehow rule the world.

I relate to this. A guy who is a doctor who I hung out with back in 2017 was drunk while we were up at a cabin and instead of giving me a ibuprofen for my headache he came up and adjusted my neck to hard , tore v artery in my neck sent blood clot to my brain. Ya I sued him but wasn't a lot and not worth the brain damage. He went on to open his own practice and seems to be doing well. Fuck them

What the actual fuck. I don't have words to how much this angered me reading this. I'm incredibly sorry. I sincerely do not see a single reason for the existence of this world. I would be in jail and his body would be the one having Brain damage, if that was me. I don't have much faith but I really hope that the evil get punished in the afterlife.

Fuck life

Fuck yeah

 

[U. A.]

this thread is so full of righteous fire, i don't know if i have much to add.
modern/urban societies are too big; their architects were these kinds of people, those willing to stomp on others to get and maintain their power and privilege. only people like this will "succeed" because everything is set up to induce and reward cutthroat competition. careers, business, politics; no difference.
care work/ethics have zero place, aside from in the home. unrecognized and unrewarded slave labour usually performed by women/femmes.
even though everyone would literally fucking die without that labour.
i hate men, and i am one.

[edit: maybe i hate testosterone, i've come across some right fucking cunts in medicine - and that is not a word i ever use]

 

[fallendevil]

this thread is so full of righteous fire, i don't know if i have much to add.
modern/urban societies are too big; their architects were the kinds of people, those willing to stomp on others to get and maintain their power and privilege. only people like this will "succeed" because everything is set up to induce and reward cutthroat competition. careers, business, politics; no difference.
care work/ethics have zero place, aside from in the home. unrecognized and unrewarded slave labour usually performed by women/femmes.
even though everyone would literally fucking die without that labour.
i hate men, and i am one.

This is unfortunately true.

Evil people tend to be really intelligent and charismatic. It's literally needed to climb up the capitalism latter. They're bullying you to eliminate competition and assert dominance in a way that's like "if you don't respect me, I will make your life hell, so stand out of my way."

 

[atarax1a]

I understand how you feel. Everyone of my generation is having great lifes while I am consumed by pain and illness.

My bullies too have good lifes.