kindawannacrylol
Student
- Jan 13, 2021
- 142
My religious indoctrination is so bad, I'm going to have to break up with my girlfriend, i love her so much and i never want to be away from her, but i can't let myself be close with her without thinking i'm committing a sin, i have awful nightmares about being gay and my ex-biblical faith that i can't escape from. I feel so guilty when i'm with her even though she makes me feel so good. I have the same problem when i eat pig products/shrimp and when i wear more revealing clothing i feel so guilty and it makes me feel sick. I doubt the indoctrination will go away, it's been months since i left my religion and thoughts about being sinful and burning in hell still haven't left me. I want to be able to live a normal life without having to think of these things, it's just so hard to deal with, and no one takes me seriously because so many of my friends are christians.