My Plans Have Been Moved Forward

[AerialBoundaries]

My plan from the get go was low suspension hanging. I live less than 5 mins away from a hardware shop, so I have the means to do what I need to do.

I wanted to do this before the latter part of the year, but I'm hurting so bad, that I don't think I can make it. I really wanted just to see myself through Christmas and the end of this year and see what happens after that.

I don't want to worry. I don't want to give a fuck after this point. I don't want to be another inpatient victim.

I'm sorry if I don't get back to anybody.

 

[makethepainstop]

Dear God, I DO understand your feelings, really, I do! I hope somehow you find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's understandable wanting to escape from all pain and I know that it's hard to carry on existing when all that you want is to be gone. I wish you freedom from all suffering.

 

[Hope:-)]

I know what you mean about the inpatient victim thing. God. Sending you love xxx

 

[AerialBoundaries]

Thanks, everybody. I appreciate it. I really want to make it to next year at least. If I died it'd devastate my mum particularly at this moment, but if I can get through until next year, I think she'd understand my reasons for leaving.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

I'll see you guys on the other side. I'm sorry that life ended up this way.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

I'll see you guys on the other side. I'm sorry that life ended up this way.

If anybody will read this, I'm truly sorry. I'm here. I'm alive and I'm more miserable than ever. I had distant family members reach out to me this morning regarding my mental health
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Please, forgive me. I was in such a bad place and I didn't want anybody to be concerned about my wellbeing.

Again, please accept my apology and I'll be here if anybody is struggling.
Family and friends know my situation now. Now I feel that I have to go through with it. I don't want to be seen as sympathy case.