My plan so far

[Arlowantsushi]

I'm still trying to find a way to get my hands on some SN.

Once i do, I'm going to book and appointment with my doctor and hopefully get my hands on some meto or a similar anti nausea medicine.
I already have medical grade prescription antiacids ( i saw someone on here say it was helpful) and ill just take a high dose of extra strength Tylenol.
And my sister has these pills that help you relax (i forget what they're called but she offers me them when I'm too anxious to sleep).

Now the big decision is when.

Now i cant pick an actual date yet since i still haven't found any sources I trust to buy from. But once i get it I'm gonna wait a month. save up my money sell some of my collectibles and give away a bunch of stuff to loved ones. I'm gonna set up plans for my cats (honestly the hardest part of all this cuz i know they'll be sad and confused) and hang out with all my friends one last time, maybe even re connect with family members i cut off.

I think I'm gonna do it on a Friday night. I usually have plans with my friends the next day day so they'll probably be the ones to find my body. (i live with my nephew and really don't want him to be the one to find me). Ill leave my notes on the desk along with the money i saved for my family to use towards rent and costs of getting me cremated or whatever they end up doing, and a paper with all my passwords so they can look back on all my stuff (camara roll and stuff).

I think that's a good plan.

 

[Dinozauria]

Sounds like a solid plan :)
I hope it all goes well and you can find somewhere to buy SN from goodluck with obtaining the rest of the things you need to <3
I hope you also manage to find good homes for your cats. I'll have to leave pets behind too, but it's for the best

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Definitely sounds like you've thought it through. Much much better than acting on impulse, imo.