my only friend left me for his other friends

[404]

i haven't talked to him for a month now and im only seeing posts of him being with his other friends

is it a bad thing that im always crying about him leaving me?

i think im being selfish since he looks so happy with literally everyone else but me

he probably won't come back anymore if there's other people that make him happy

living is really painful without him i really wish he'd come back to me one more time

im planning to end it all after my final meeting with him since i have no reason to live anymore aside from him

(thinking about it all of this is pathetic i hate feeling horrible everyday just because someone left me while other people are struggling a lot more)

 

[PapaYeehaw]

You dodged a bullet here, and he will likely do it again to those people he seems happy with. Him leaving without caring for your feelings is all the closure you need, unless there was a huge falling out or something. If you're around highschool/college aged then it's pretty normal for that stuff to happen and you will make more friends eventually. It's sad but it gets easier. Hope you can find happiness within yourself, because this pain is temporary and I wouldn't end things unless you are sure this world is not something you want to be part of.

 

[アホペンギン]

I can relate with what you're going through. I haven't experienced any friends leaving me for anyone else yet but i feel that it will happen very soon. I have a friend who i recently told about my suicidal ideation, he did not take me seriously and instead is ignoring me. We didn't talk much before he was aware of my intentions of suicide but i feel that our friendship will end very soon, even if i didn't believe this before, when we didn't talk much. He is one of my only friends so it would be terrible for our friendship to end all of a sudden.

 

[90starve]

IMO this is just pretty normal human behaviour, unfortunately. im sorry that he has seemingly disregarded your friendship without a second thought. perhaps this is a good thing. i hope that you can find a way to heal from this, in your own time <3

 

[404]

this pain is temporary and I wouldn't end things unless you are sure this world is not something you want to be part of.

i always rely on him for comfort whenever i feel depressed (which is every day for a year now) and i feel very guilty for just existing because of that

i haven't improved one bit when he was still helping me and i feel like i got a lot worse which makes me even more guilty

i don't think i'll improve anytime soon and my life will get harder and harder as time passes

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be hard to deal with being in that situation, I just think that after all humans cannot be trusted and relied on, sadly other people just very often create even more suffering. But anyway best wishes, it must be so tiring having to suffer like that.