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mrwizard11
I'm at an all time low
- Apr 4, 2023
- 26
I've been here before. I left. I thought I'd never be back, but here I am again. I was married for 10 years, and it ended over next to nothing. We both contributed to it's failure, and I thought I couldn't take it. I was suicidal for months, but I met someone else and I survived. But now, it's failing with my new partner and this time it's not even anything I did or can control.
I just can't do it anymore dude. I try and try and I still draw the short straw. By any other standard I should be happy, but without a partner to share it with, life loses all meaning. I don't have any friends, and my family is super small. The number of people that care about me numbers 3, and I'm not even sure they really care. My partner definitely hasn't seemed to care lately. Outside of that, all I have is work and taking care of people that need me. No one ever takes care of me, or asks how I am doing. I am so tired of it all the time. If this doesn't last, I can't go on doing it. I feel like this is the one thing I can control and I have to put myself first.
I just can't do it anymore dude. I try and try and I still draw the short straw. By any other standard I should be happy, but without a partner to share it with, life loses all meaning. I don't have any friends, and my family is super small. The number of people that care about me numbers 3, and I'm not even sure they really care. My partner definitely hasn't seemed to care lately. Outside of that, all I have is work and taking care of people that need me. No one ever takes care of me, or asks how I am doing. I am so tired of it all the time. If this doesn't last, I can't go on doing it. I feel like this is the one thing I can control and I have to put myself first.