My mother will have surgery

[lillmonix3]

My mother will have an surgery It's already 10 . If something goes wrong and she dies, I plan to end my life.Would you do it too? Did you choose to live and blame yourself for her death? I fled my country because of the war and I don't have the strength to go to work in a new country and I don't have money to help my parents.I'm a freak because of which my mother worries, cries because I may not respond to messages for a long time, or I may say something bad to manipulate someone.I think it would be better for me to die.If I hadn't been there, she wouldn't have undergone so many operations.After my birth, she had constant surgeries.Until I was two years old, my grandmother and father raised me, because my mother was constantly in the hospital.I hate myself.