My mom just doesn't understand

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

I vent to her, but I need to stop because it's pointless. She doesn't understand. It's like her worldview is totally different, despite that she also had very bad depression at various points in her life. Sometimes she doesn't even respond when I talk to her anymore, because there's nothing left to say. She doesn't tell me anymore that I won't always feel like this, that it will get better. She told me that when I was 16, but I'm 25 now, and it's not better - it's gotten much worse. She tells me I need to take antidepressants and go to therapy. I have tried therapy, it never helped. The thought of returning to my last therapist makes me feel like vomiting. And I've tried many antidepressants - they either didn't help enough to make up for the awful side effects, or as I think my previous antidepressant did, permanently damaged my hearing and left me with tinnitus. But she doesn't understand that either, she just thinks it's a minor annoyance and not a crushing, life-destroying condition. She doesn't realize that for all my pain now, if I take an antidepressant and my tinnitus gets worse, I will be doomed.

No one understands, no one really cares about stopping my pain. They just want me to stay alive and quality of life be damned. I am in fucking agony...

 

[SilentSadness]

I agree, most people just don't understand anything, they are animal minds in a human body. They are Non Player Characters.

 

[ventingfrustrations]

saaame except I don't have tinnitus I think she was using my mask of happiness to help her depression but now that the mask is no longer able to be there she is more depressed

 

[divinemistress87]

I understand . My mom went through bad depression in her younger days but got on Prozac and was fine after. Ive been treatment resistant. Our moms should be our biggest Allies yet they choose to ignore our pain. They brought us into this fucked up world its their job to do everything to help us