Bedrock48
Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
- Feb 1, 2021
- 540
Been doing better for a while, really feeling like I've been making good progress. Then the support I've been getting for my mental health has slowly faded into nothing. I'm getting more support than ever atm, for everything except my mental health that is which is arguably most important.
Struggling to eat, struggling to sleep and it's almost like my body is preparing to ctb all on its own. I really want to put a date on the calendar and go for it this time. I can't keep feeling this pain. The idea of suicide is currently filling my stomach with a pit of dread though, not a feeling of calm like I want.
I'm conflicted and hurting.
Struggling to eat, struggling to sleep and it's almost like my body is preparing to ctb all on its own. I really want to put a date on the calendar and go for it this time. I can't keep feeling this pain. The idea of suicide is currently filling my stomach with a pit of dread though, not a feeling of calm like I want.
I'm conflicted and hurting.