ninfanatic
anorexic suicide messiah.
- Jul 3, 2024
- 78
for people who are very serious and determined to kts or 'ctb' and are doing so soon, as i am, do you share in feelings of peace?
i am filled with dread that i can't recover, not just from depression but from other very serious mh conditions, and i've finally decided on this despite trying not to for a little while.
i view death as a good or neutral thing for myself. maybe more neutral, in the way that it's something that is just going to happen, but the feelings of peace that it brings make me feel really good, and it's a foreign peace.
just wanted to share this. there's been much suffering thrust upon me for years and years, by people who are either dead or living and not sorry in the slightest, and i see death as both one step above them and as a release from pain.
i know that i'll be happy very soon. i'm using the hanging method and will be buying a rope in the coming days as i've planned.
i am filled with dread that i can't recover, not just from depression but from other very serious mh conditions, and i've finally decided on this despite trying not to for a little while.
i view death as a good or neutral thing for myself. maybe more neutral, in the way that it's something that is just going to happen, but the feelings of peace that it brings make me feel really good, and it's a foreign peace.
just wanted to share this. there's been much suffering thrust upon me for years and years, by people who are either dead or living and not sorry in the slightest, and i see death as both one step above them and as a release from pain.
i know that i'll be happy very soon. i'm using the hanging method and will be buying a rope in the coming days as i've planned.
