Venting My method

[myrtaryniel]

I finally decided i'm going to ctb by SN+jumping. I'll spend the day in this beautiful little town near me which has a fucking tall bridge. I'll get a room for the night and get seriously drunk and high, and then by the early morning i'll take the SN and about 10 minutes later i'll jump. Hopefully if sn doesn't kill me, the jump will. If they rescue me from the river, I can only hope it'll be too late to administre the antidote.

I don't even know why i'm posting here anymore. Ctb is so fucking lonely. I wish days passed more quickly, or that I could spend them just sleeping. Lately i've been dreaming of happy things, and when I wake up and they're not there, I feel my own brain is mocking me.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

i feel you, life is really unfair. i'm spending my days in pain and trying to take courage to ctb. my method would be SN, but if i had a gun i'd use it because it's so quick