My mental state is really bad right now

[trd0890]

I'm shaking and it's hard to breathe, i cant think clearly so im very sorry if what im about to say is very confusing. I have no access to emergency as i'm in medical residency right now and my colleagues will probably recognize me. I have bpd and my boyfriend suddenly left me. We live in different city at the moment, and i'm thinking to ditch everything and go over to his house to save this relationship. I have no idea what to do. i feel stuck. I wish i bring my SN with me. I'm already in so much pain and i really dont think i want to continue this. SS is my only safe place to vent as all i think about right now is ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so awful feeling trapped in that situation and I'm sorry that you have to endure so much pain. It undeniably is such a cruel world that we exist in and it's just so unfair how so much suffering has to exist here, but anyway best wishes.

 

[hellispink]

I understand you so much. I have bdp. When my ex cheated and left me, I also couldn't breathe. You in a bdp crisis. You must be feeling like the world is falling apart in pieces. I suggest you take a very cold shower if it is available. It will help calm down a little bit. Or you can try sleeping. Remember if you do anything you need to do it with cold head, not right now.

 

[AngryDog]

What a nightmare. Try to avoid any risky impulsive decisions in that state. Hope you can make it.