smallalvin
New Member
- Dec 8, 2025
- 1
I have PTSD and can't remember 99% of my life if not more. I get extremely triggered every day. I'm deformed, partially because of what traumatized me. I found someone who was accepting of everything and he just suddenly stopped talking to me.
I'm also living in a shit house where I'm woken up almost every morning by constant loud noises that cause me actual pain.
I really don't see a point in living when my life is so miserable. The relationship was the one thing I had to look forward to and now all I have are dumb hobbies that I can't even usually engage with because I'm dealing with mental and physical pain nearly all the time.
I've been suicidal for so long but keep making excuses because I'm delusional and long for a life that's impossible for me to have.
I'm also living in a shit house where I'm woken up almost every morning by constant loud noises that cause me actual pain.
I really don't see a point in living when my life is so miserable. The relationship was the one thing I had to look forward to and now all I have are dumb hobbies that I can't even usually engage with because I'm dealing with mental and physical pain nearly all the time.
I've been suicidal for so long but keep making excuses because I'm delusional and long for a life that's impossible for me to have.
