SanguineShark
I am the monster you created
- Jun 23, 2023
- 223
I'm crying because I've been thinking a lot about suicide for years, and especially this year. I thought that maybe I should go to a psychiatric hospital again, but what's the point? It will not fix me or my life, it will just be a painful waste of time and adding extra worry for my friends which will in turn only cause them to want to abandon me. But also if I'm left on my own, I will inevetably just give up completely and ctb. I wish I could be normal and happy but I can't, I tried, my life is ruined because I'm too weak to do anything to change it, I've been so drained by my own mental health issues that I have nothing going on in my life and just sit in my room for months. I feel stuck and the only option I see is to just die, but I'm scared, there are things I like about life like games, spending time with friends and other stuff that make me momentarily happy.. but my life itself is just doomed, if I don't do anything I will just continue to waste it and maybe either end up as an adult still living with their mom or homeless. I'm truly a failure.