Venting My life is just getting worse

[SpaceBoyEvangef]

Hey, SaSu, it's been a good while, and everything in my life has just gotten worse, my mom is out of the picture once again, they took her because someone called the police on her, I won't see her until God knows when, and she was getting much better, and I could actually talk to her again, but now, there's nobody. I'm getting boxcutters this Friday, but I don't even know if s/h would even be a viable option at this point, I don't know what to do, I want to die, but I don't want to die at the same time, I just don't know what to do anymore, everything is horrible once again.


And as a sidenote:
I had to get back on here, because, people on discord are just insufferable when it comes to venting, I don't want you sending a torrent of your annoying fucking friends to "comfort" me, you all say the same shit, it's annoying.

 

[StarryNights94]

As someone who understands the feeling of "wanting to die" and "not wanting to die", it's the latter that is the strongest force. I just returned from smoking a cigarettte. All but myself, this small bauble of orange light and smoke, tears down my face. We never thought life would be this way? But it's that force of "not wanting to die" that allows us to somehow make it through.

I haven't been on this site for a long time, over a year I believe, but I saw your post and I respectfully understand your anguish, albeit subjective to both of our circumstances.

During that period, I spent 4 months within a psychiatric unit. The world was strange. I became a stranger within it. And a large part of me is still lost and a total stranger to the life I once knew. But, I am here.

You are here.

Grasp to any light you can, my friend.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I wish that you find peace soon no matter what you choose to do