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Venting My headspace is a mess

Scacie

Scacie

She/Her
Feb 24, 2023
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My headspace and emotions are such a mess. I've technically set a date to CTB in 2.5months time but I dont even know if I can go through with it. I dont have enough supplies and I'm so scared of failure and its consequences. Yet I want nothing more than to leave this body for good. I dont recognize any part of this body or life and I spend most of my day dissociated or distracted. I desperately want to fall in love and be loved, yet I can't seem to get a lasting crush on anyone. I dont want to leave my friends and have yet to tell my closest friend about my intentions to go.
I just wish I can tune down all these thoughts and focus on a goal, and stop drifting through life...
 
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eatantz

eatantz

I luv dolls
Nov 4, 2023
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You deserve so much better, I'm sorry Scacie:heart: I hope you find a lover and live a happy life <(˶ᵔᵕᵔ˶)>
 
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