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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
189
I begged her to stay, to wait before making any decision. I begged her to talk to me, but she did it by text message instead of voice. I told her I would suffer from her absence; I said that if she was aware of my suffering and still decided to block me, it would be an act of malice. I was abandoned. Please help me, Sasu users. I cried, I begged, I humiliated myself. I'm not writing this out of exaggeration; I can't put into words everything I feel. I just wanted to be loved.
I begged her to stay, to wait before making any decision. I begged her to talk to me, but she did it by text message instead of voice. I told her I would suffer from her absence; I said that if she was aware of my suffering and still decided to block me, it would be an act of malice. I was abandoned. Please help me, Sasu users. I cried, I begged, I humiliated myself. I'm not writing this out of exaggeration; I can't put into words everything I feel. I just wanted to be loved.
I said I could try to kill myself. I said I have no friends, no one in my life, and even knowing that, she decided to leave.
I begged her to stay, to wait before making any decision. I begged her to talk to me, but she did it by text message instead of voice. I told her I would suffer from her absence; I said that if she was aware of my suffering and still decided to block me, it would be an act of malice. I was abandoned. Please help me, Sasu users. I cried, I begged, I humiliated myself. I'm not writing this out of exaggeration; I can't put into words everything I feel. I just wanted to be loved.

I said I could try to kill myself. I said I have no friends, no one in my life, and even knowing that, she decided to leave.
I would have been so happy. I deserved that happy life. I would have been so... so... happy if I had been with her.
 
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cvury

Member
May 20, 2025
40
never put yourself down for other people's choices. it was clearly outside of your control. at this point the best thing you can do is try to move on
 
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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
189
I begged her to stay, to wait before making any decision. I begged her to talk to me, but she did it by text message instead of voice. I told her I would suffer from her absence; I said that if she was aware of my suffering and still decided to block me, it would be an act of malice. I was abandoned. Please help me, Sasu users. I cried, I begged, I humiliated myself. I'm not writing this out of exaggeration; I can't put into words everything I feel. I just wanted to be loved.

I said I could try to kill myself. I said I have no friends, no one in my life, and even knowing that, she decided to leave.

I would have been so happy. I deserved that happy life. I would have been so... so... happy if I had been with her.
She knows I'm suffering while I write this. I said I would suffer for the rest of my life, that I would cry every night for her. She knows.
never put yourself down for other people's choices. it was clearly outside of your control. at this point the best thing you can do is try to move on
Please, but I gave up so much for her. Please, just repeat that it's not my fault. I feel so alone that I can't describe it in text on this forum.
 
SASU-KE

SASU-KE

How my day starts ↑
Nov 26, 2025
475
I understand you're suffering tremendously. However, you can't expect someone else to stay in a relationship with you just for your sake. Also, don't ever humiliate yourself. Self respect and confidence is very important in any healthy relationship.

I know you don't want to hear this right now, but you must move on. This Particular relationship is over.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,075
wait, how tf you goin around sayin yous was an incel when yous had a gf dawg
 
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OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
474
I mean, i think his people would disown him for that one, it's still *technically* having had a gf lol.
Do imaginary ones count? 😭

OP you can't blackmail people into staying with you by threatening suicide dude. Sad
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,075
Do imaginary ones count? 😭

OP you can't blackmail people into staying with you by threatening suicide dude. Sad
If yes, can we count Holo from the hit anime series Spice And Wolf : Merchant Meets The Wise Wolf as my imaginary gf. You should watch it.
spice-and-wolf-holo.gif
 
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rabbitjack

Member
Dec 6, 2025
62
I know how you feel and it's very hard. You can't control how they feel. And if they feel they don't want to be with you anymore, then you should also not want to be with someone that doesn't want to be with you. You shouldn't like people that don't like you.
 
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Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
189
wait, how tf you goin around sayin yous was an incel when yous had a gf dawg
All I can do now is cry, Astolfo. I'm suffering so much.
I know how you feel and it's very hard. You can't control how they feel. And if they feel they don't want to be with you anymore, then you should also not want to be with someone that doesn't want to be with you. You shouldn't like people that don't like you.
Yes, I had that exact thought while begging to stay. But I'm so empty, I'm so alone, I need to sleep embraced and hearing that someone loves me tonight. But there's no one.
 
Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
519
All I can do now is cry, Astolfo. I'm suffering so much.
You said in another thread she was your online gf, and she has a boyfriend.. Not to sound like an asshole, but did you really think it was going to work out?
 
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Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
189
You said in another thread she was your online gf, and she has a boyfriend.. Not to sound like an asshole, but did you really think it was going to work out?
I did everything for her. She told me not to break her heart. A year later she abandoned me. I trusted her more than anyone else in the world. She was everything to me.
 
Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
519
I did everything for her. She told me not to break her heart. A year later she abandoned me. I trusted her more than anyone else in the world. She was everything to me.
I get it. It's happened to me, but in real life. I moved on rather quickly.

The thing is, and I know you've heard it many times, NEVER trust someone you met online. Maybe she told you not to break her heart because she wanted to pull your strings and get as much as she could from you(that happened to me).

Did you ever talk on the phone, or have a video chat with her? If not, there's that extreme possibility that she wasn't who she said she was.
 
Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
189
I get it. It's happened to me, but in real life. I moved on rather quickly.

The thing is, and I know you've heard it many times, NEVER trust someone you met online. Maybe she told you not to break her heart because she wanted to pull your strings and get as much as she could from you(that happened to me).

Did you ever talk on the phone, or have a video chat with her? If not, there's that extreme possibility that she wasn't who she said she was.
We used to masturbate together. She would show me her body, I would show her mine. She had access to all my documents, I even sent her money. She spent days and nights on voice calls with me. She knew all my problems, she said she loved me.

She gave me her geographical location, but I ended up deleting it. I wish I had kept that information. I showed her my family.
I get it. It's happened to me, but in real life. I moved on rather quickly.

The thing is, and I know you've heard it many times, NEVER trust someone you met online. Maybe she told you not to break her heart because she wanted to pull your strings and get as much as she could from you(that happened to me).

Did you ever talk on the phone, or have a video chat with her? If not, there's that extreme possibility that she wasn't who she said she was.
She was the person who held my life in her hands. She chose to trample on my feelings when I begged her to stay, to stop talking to me, but without blocking me, without making me inaccessible to her.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,075
All I can do now is cry, Astolfo. I'm suffering so much.

Yes, I had that exact thought while begging to stay. But I'm so empty, I'm so alone, I need to sleep embraced and hearing that someone loves me tonight. But there's no one.
i mean, you could watch Spice And Wolf 2024
We used to masturbate together. She would show me her body, I would show her mine. She had access to all my documents, I even sent her money. She spent days and nights on voice calls with me. She knew all my problems, she said she loved me.

She gave me her geographical location, but I ended up deleting it. I wish I had kept that information. I showed her my family.

She was the person who held my life in her hands. She chose to trample on my feelings when I begged her to stay, to stop talking to me, but without blocking me, without making me inaccessible to her.
wait... you... sent her money ? Bro, that's called an e-girl/escort. You can't just buy a gf, this isnt runescape.
 
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chudcell

BPD + attachment issues :/
Feb 20, 2026
12
Sounds like you got fleeced by a com girl
 
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takuyangel

[ should've been born a deer ]
Feb 19, 2025
65
I would have been so happy. I deserved that happy life. I would have been so... so... happy if I had been with her.
if your happiness at any point of time is dependent on a relationship with another person then that relationship isn't healthy. YOU aren't healthy. and it wouldn't be real happiness. just validation. stay up dude i just got out of a relationship myself. try to focus on you for a little bit.
 
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Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
189
Should I post her picture here on this site?
I'm really hurt. She doesn't care if I live or kill myself. I dedicated so much to her.
 
SadCryingBunny

SadCryingBunny

Experienced
Apr 10, 2025
244
She knows I'm suffering while I write this. I said I would suffer for the rest of my life, that I would cry every night for her. She knows.

Please, but I gave up so much for her. Please, just repeat that it's not my fault. I feel so alone that I can't describe it in text on this forum.
Bro go find another woman ASAP. Forget her. There are way better women.
 
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chudcell

BPD + attachment issues :/
Feb 20, 2026
12
Should I post her picture here on this site?
I'm really hurt. She doesn't care if I live or kill myself. I dedicated so much to her.
dont post her pic. That could end up with her being doxxed. Ive been doxxed and swatted before.
 
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waterbottle3929

Member
Feb 4, 2024
33
Should I post her picture here on this site?
I'm really hurt. She doesn't care if I live or kill myself. I dedicated so much to her.
Do not post her picture. She could get doxxed. I understand you're hurting and want to hurt her as well, but this is not how you heal from this. Please do not stoop that low even if you feel used. I understand this hurts, but you do not want to do anything rash that you will regret in the future impulsively. You can be a better person than her.
 
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Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
189
Do not post her picture. She could get doxxed. I understand you're hurting and want to hurt her as well, but this is not how you heal from this. Please do not stoop that low even if you feel used. I understand this hurts, but you do not want to do anything rash that you will regret in the future impulsively. You can be a better person than her.
The pain I feel, she deserves to feel too. I wish she could understand the weight of my loneliness. But unfortunately, I don't think that will happen. I'm trying to dream that I'm dead right now.
 
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gayboy300

legal drug dealer
Aug 28, 2025
60
> threatens suicide in attempt to get her to stay
> genuinely considers posting her picture knowing she may get doxxed

wow, I can't begin to fathom why she would possibly ever break up with a charmer like you
 
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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
189
> threatens suicide in attempt to get her to stay
> genuinely considers posting her picture knowing she may get doxxed

wow, I can't begin to fathom why she would possibly ever break up with a charmer like you
She would induce vomiting because she was afraid of gaining weight. I was always there comforting her, telling her she didn't need to do that, but that she shouldn't blame herself. I prioritized her feelings above my own well-being. You can't tell me I'm wrong. I loved her to the point of sacrificing myself for her. If I said I was going to commit suicide, it was because I was desperate, and I commented on how much I hated having to resort to that.
> threatens suicide in attempt to get her to stay
> genuinely considers posting her picture knowing she may get doxxed

wow, I can't begin to fathom why she would possibly ever break up with a charmer like you
She knows this forum; I introduced her to it. She could be reading my posts (but I doubt she will). I'm being abandoned by the very person I swore loved me.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,075
Can't you just like, throw more money at her, or robux, that usually works.
 
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waterbottle3929

Member
Feb 4, 2024
33
She would induce vomiting because she was afraid of gaining weight. I was always there comforting her, telling her she didn't need to do that, but that she shouldn't blame herself. I prioritized her feelings above my own well-being. You can't tell me I'm wrong. I loved her to the point of sacrificing myself for her. If I said I was going to commit suicide, it was because I was desperate, and I commented on how much I hated having to resort to that.

She knows this forum; I introduced her to it. She could be reading my posts (but I doubt she will). I'm being abandoned by the very person I swore loved me.
Listen. Take a genuine step back. You were dependent on her. Too much so. And I understand that. We all want a reason to live. She was yours, the idea of a person who would love and cherish you. And now its gone. You resorted to emotional manipulation to beg her to stay with you. But no one is obligated to love you back. If you had loved her like you claimed, you would not have done that nor would you be sincerely wondering if you should post her pictures and get her doxxed. You liked the idea of a woman and companionship.

Go hang out with your friends. Or find some. Hop on an online game. Distract yourself. Do not become a worse version of yourself. Allow yourself time to grieve and process.

From a concerned stranger, please don't become someone you will be ashamed of in the future.
 
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