Story My GF keeps me from CTB

[dernieresolution]

I've always had difficulties making friends. Loneliness hurts like hell, feel like a non-human. You feel like a ghost not worthy of life.

And yet I have a GF. She's beautiful, and faithful. I'm happy she has friends, but it hurts to know I can't have something like that.

Honestly, sans her, I'd have CTB'd. She knows of my struggles, and still stays. Sometimes I'm scaref of her leaving, but maybe then I could allow myself to CTB.

For now, I suppose I stay for her.

 

[Worndown]

You are lucky to have someone that devoted. That is less common these days.

 

[cami]

im glad you've found someone. just remember that your value is not dependent on your girlfriend. but im happy for you and i wish you too a happy relationship.

 

[Rockman]

If you feel that GF cure you go for it. There were examples of recovery from suicide because of girlfrend.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

my girlfriend did the same. now she's gone and my whole world has crashed. relapse on self harm and alcohol, ordering SN... practising slip knots.

I'm not saying she will leave but now might be the time to really work on yourself when you're more stable- seeing a therapist, establishing good boundaries and routines.

 

[Jamesun]

Friend, I am in the same situation, although he has supported me a lot and does not want me to do it either, I am in a bloody dilemma.I want to die but she is here I don't know what to do right now but I wish you luck with your decision and I hope you can find the best for yourself.

 

[dernieresolution]

my girlfriend did the same. now she's gone and my whole world has crashed. relapse on self harm and alcohol, ordering SN... practising slip knots.

I'm not saying she will leave but now might be the time to really work on yourself when you're more stable- seeing a therapist, establishing good boundaries and routines.

Maybe i'm making excuses, but I dont think my problem can be fixed, short of a big LSD trip.

 

[m4rius]

Incredible. I envy you.

I could not imagine being all depressed and suicidal, yet having a partner support me no matter what. It feels surreal.

You have a gem by your side. It strikes me with great surprise how you have difficulty in making friends. Usually having a girlfriend and friends is something connected. You mostly meet new people through friends.

 

[dernieresolution]

Incredible. I envy you.

I could not imagine being all depressed and suicidal, yet having a partner support me no matter what. It feels surreal.

You have a gem by your side. It strikes me with great surprise how you have difficulty in making friends. Usually having a girlfriend and friends is something connected. You mostly meet new people through friends.

Truth be told I don't know either how it works.

We meet back in college, friends for 2 4 years, but back then presumably I was maybe...healthier. I had TV shows I liked, goals, some modicum of focus.

Now I'm in my masters, and I can't seem to connect with anyone.

My theory is that I became a more boring person over time. I do not know.

 

[nightshade00]

Friend, I am in the same situation, although he has supported me a lot and does not want me to do it either, I am in a bloody dilemma.I want to die but she is here I don't know what to do right now but I wish you luck with your decision and I hope you can find the best for yourself.

Same here. Her love means so much to me and it helps with the pain, but I still want to die.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

Maybe i'm making excuses, but I dont think my problem can be fixed, short of a big LSD trip.

I just mean that while you feel like you're being kept from CTB, now might be the time where you're most open to seeking therapies and medications or whatever...

but idk you or your story, I'm just a stranger on the internet. if you don't want to that's your decision