Venting My general vent thread

[Rihan]

Hello, I've read through your thread and your situation has touched me. Life is be so unfair and overwhelming even when we are doing nothing but our best. I hope that you can someday rest and find the peace that you need, whether or not you decide to CTB.

 

[WishfulNeanderthal]

Hello, I've read through your thread and your situation has touched me. Life is be so unfair and overwhelming even when we are doing nothing but our best. I hope that you can someday rest and find the peace that you need, whether or not you decide to CTB.

Thank you, truly. That is a beautiful thing to say. I hope you find the peace you need aswell, hopefully through life C:

 

[WishfulNeanderthal]

Small update: Im experimenting with weed as usual for the past weeks and its like a 50/50 lol. Been trying sativas and it can honestly make me more productive at times. Indica's are just a bit too psychedelic for me, but can be nice.

Anyways, excluding the whole weed shenanigans. I finally managed to continue in one of the job applications i applied to. Not an interview but 3 work-psychology tests. And i managed to do them almost flawlessly! I hope i get called to an interview, would be nice to try this job. The job is basicially a case worker/administrator for gov home adress stuff. We'll see if i get it.

Felt a bit anxious today since i had to take a sick day since i was exhausted, (last month i had like 8 days in total sick days, this month its only been 2, including this one). But i felt my mom got dissappointed, that she feels like im doing it because im lazy or that i'll do it if i get a real job. But i really have to some days, i mean yeah i could have pushed on but i feel like i would have gotten a meltdown then. Idk? I probably should have gone today.

Anyways, my current plan is just to keep trying until it gets way warmer here, if by late spring i haven't been able to do any progress then we will see what i'll do.