Grave
tired
- Mar 5, 2021
- 65
Recently one of my best friends has just been ignoring me. Like in school if I try to spend time with her, she'll just not talk to me, like move away and talk to other people instead. And online she either leaves me on read, or just doesn't even bother to read my messages.
Right now as well we're doing a shitload of exams and I was taken of my antidepressants because I overdosed on them so like I'm not to be trusted with it, which means my mood has really dipped, like every single fucking day it's just getting harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning.
Idk, it feels like a sign for me to ctb, I was already thinking of full suspension hanging because I've tried partial and it hasn't worked and it doesn't require much resources or whatever. Ideally I'd get SN, but that's almost impossible for me because I live with my parents still.
I just want this to all fucking end man, I've been to endless therapy and that shit just doesn't work for me, I can't be fixed, I'm just not meant for life I guess, we're not compatible.
I'm sorry I don't really know where I'm going with this, but like life was shit enough already and now my best friends gone and abandoned me, I've had enough.
Right now as well we're doing a shitload of exams and I was taken of my antidepressants because I overdosed on them so like I'm not to be trusted with it, which means my mood has really dipped, like every single fucking day it's just getting harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning.
Idk, it feels like a sign for me to ctb, I was already thinking of full suspension hanging because I've tried partial and it hasn't worked and it doesn't require much resources or whatever. Ideally I'd get SN, but that's almost impossible for me because I live with my parents still.
I just want this to all fucking end man, I've been to endless therapy and that shit just doesn't work for me, I can't be fixed, I'm just not meant for life I guess, we're not compatible.
I'm sorry I don't really know where I'm going with this, but like life was shit enough already and now my best friends gone and abandoned me, I've had enough.