My family makes me want to blow my brains out

[m3nhera]

It's as if that's their only purpose. I wonder how many people here have been driven to suicide/are suicidal because(or even just partially because) of family so I'm doing a poll. Are you suicidal only because of family?

 

[DoomsdayCTB]

YES. OMG. The other night, I was sobbing because my Narc Mom was screaming at me as usual (and I'm almost 40 living back at home, sad long story). And I'm just like wow this bitch doesn't know she just signed my death warrant. But I do believe real Narcs are actual murderers. It's just psychological... but I believe their goal is to get people to commit suicide.

 

[chaotic_crow]

Literally just had to pack up my belongings to strap on the back of my wheelchair to leave out for the streets because I overheard my grandma talking shit about me to my aunt. They hate me for being disabled, like it's my fault or I'm just lazy and don't wanna do anything. I literally lost everything and my family thinks I'm the biggest piece of shit. Everything I do gets spun into something it's not and then they all get around and make things up about me and act like everyone is telling the truth

 

[insectontrial]

Partly because of my parents, yes.

 

[DoomsdayCTB]

Literally just had to pack up my belongings to strap on the back of my wheelchair to leave out for the streets because I overheard my grandma talking shit about me to my aunt. They hate me for being disabled, like it's my fault or I'm just lazy and don't wanna do anything. I literally lost everything and my family thinks I'm the biggest piece of shit. Everything I do gets spun into something it's not and then they all get around and make things up about me and act like everyone is telling the truth

Yeah, I'm most likely going to be homeless, but in my car... i've done a lot of research and it's actually quite difficult to live in the car when you're in chronic pain. I'm so sorry you're in this situation, there has to be resources for someone in your case. If you haven't, please get in touch with the county resources (if you're in the states)... hell maybe get into the psych ward for a few days, for free food and shelter. They will definitely help you find temp housing since you are disabled. I hope you are in the US. Canada might be just as helpful.

 

[chaotic_crow]

Yeah, I'm most likely going to be homeless, but in my car... i've done a lot of research and it's actually quite difficult to live in the car when you're in chronic pain. I'm so sorry you're in this situation, there has to be resources for someone in your case. If you haven't, please get in touch with the county resources (if you're in the states)... hell maybe get into the psych ward for a few days, for free food and shelter. They will definitely help you find temp housing since you are disabled. I hope you are in the US. Canada might be just as helpful.

I hear you on the chronic pain, it's rough. I've kinda given up on housing/shelters honestly. If I have to I'll definitely go to the psychward for food and rest, I'll probably need it after a few days but there really aren't wheelchair accessible shelters in my state. Even the ones that say they are, they really aren't accessable for me and my OCD cannot handle seeing even one more bedbug. I've had entire meltdowns about the bugs and filth in the shelters

 

[m3nhera]

YES. OMG. The other night, I was sobbing because my Narc Mom was screaming at me as usual (and I'm almost 40 living back at home, sad long story). And I'm just like wow this bitch doesn't know she just signed my death warrant. But I do believe real Narcs are actual murderers. It's just psychological... but I believe their goal is to get people to commit suicide.

I FEEL THAT WAY TOO AND NOBODY UNDERSTANDS!!! I think people who force us to commit suicide are murderers but nobody sees it that way because they didn't physically stab you or something. But it IS murder. They are murderers and force us to die but because it was suicide everyone says it was a choice, but a real choice doesn't involve pressure or outside influence, it's about what we want as individuals. They coerce people into killing themselves. I'm only 18 and the thought of dying at the hands of some shitty parents is so sad, I'll just be another statistic. I don't want to give in but they make it so difficult not to. Because this sounds like such a reach I must clarify I am NOT one of those people who thinks abortion is murder, that is completely different and literally not. Also, I have reasons for being stuck at home and having no job too, so I'm not judging that you're 40 and had to go back to living with them. Life is unfair.

Literally just had to pack up my belongings to strap on the back of my wheelchair to leave out for the streets because I overheard my grandma talking shit about me to my aunt. They hate me for being disabled, like it's my fault or I'm just lazy and don't wanna do anything. I literally lost everything and my family thinks I'm the biggest piece of shit. Everything I do gets spun into something it's not and then they all get around and make things up about me and act like everyone is telling the truth

I KNOW WHY DO FAMILIES DO THIS OH MY GOD?!??? It drives me insane to no end, also I don't understand their(and society's) view on disabled people as if you CHOSE to be disabled, and then they treat you like shit because of it, when it could've been them if they were just a little less lucky. Life is so unfair as I've said before and I'm sorry your family is driving you to this state of mind aswell. I think family honestly makes any kind of chronic illness 10x worse.

 

[Forever Sleep]

My ideation began because of family issues. Now, it's more that I'm just so tired of life itself. Although- without those family issues to begin with, I likely would have turned out a different person, on a different path. I've tried multiple times to change the path I was on. I'm too tired to keep fighting now. I just want to rest.

The irony I think is when pro- lifers insist we need to stay for these people. People who may well have caused or contributed to all these problems to begin with! It's kind of astounding really- that they insist we still owe them- not to cause them pain- when I suspect many suicidal people were greatly damaged first by their families.