It's humiliating to speak of. But I need to let this out.
My family is in terrible amounts of debt. It's a completely hopeless situation, and it doesn't look like it's gonna change anytime soon. There have been a few huge expenses lately, and my father's bank account just got locked up for the second time in a year- he owes the bank 12k INR, and it won't be opened till he pays it back. I don't know how these things work, so I can't explain further. That is 12k we simply don't have and can't come up with suddenly so it will take months to repay. And of course, this amount isn't our only debt. We have lots more which they are paying off (no debt that I took out myself, I feel the need to state; I don't make any money but I live very frugally, and go to great lengths to save money)
Anyway, I am terrified of the humiliation they will face when they have to borrow money for my final rites. They will have to pay off the cops. And then they happen to be devout Hindus so I am sure some unscrupulous priest will scam them by mandating all sorts of rituals. We have generous relatives who may offer to cover these, hopefully, but I know my parents will be affected terribly by the shame of it all. Sigh. I can't even continue my rant because of my anxiety
My family is in terrible amounts of debt. It's a completely hopeless situation, and it doesn't look like it's gonna change anytime soon. There have been a few huge expenses lately, and my father's bank account just got locked up for the second time in a year- he owes the bank 12k INR, and it won't be opened till he pays it back. I don't know how these things work, so I can't explain further. That is 12k we simply don't have and can't come up with suddenly so it will take months to repay. And of course, this amount isn't our only debt. We have lots more which they are paying off (no debt that I took out myself, I feel the need to state; I don't make any money but I live very frugally, and go to great lengths to save money)
Anyway, I am terrified of the humiliation they will face when they have to borrow money for my final rites. They will have to pay off the cops. And then they happen to be devout Hindus so I am sure some unscrupulous priest will scam them by mandating all sorts of rituals. We have generous relatives who may offer to cover these, hopefully, but I know my parents will be affected terribly by the shame of it all. Sigh. I can't even continue my rant because of my anxiety
