Atm i live with my grandma, she avoided me all morning and called my aunt and was telling her that basically she has to avoid me completely by being in her room or in the basement and how I just always have an attitude. I got an attitude last night because she "corrected" me for trying to season the food she made for dinner. With seasonings I fucking payed for. But she just kept going painting me like such a bad person and my aunt was telling her to kick me out and how she wished my grandparents had listened to her about not letting me live with them. I'm so fucking done, I'm in excruciating pain everyday. I can't fucking roll my wheelchair down a block without multiple stops in horrible horrible pain but every single person in my family wants me on the fucking street. I swear they wish I was fucking dead already. I'm leaving my grandma's house either tonight or tomorrow morning, im already packed up I just have to tie everything to the back of my wheelchair.
I know I can't handle being on the streets again, I still haven't recovered from the last time over a year ago. So either tonight or tomorrow night depending on how the rest of today goes I'll be using my method. Hopefully it's quick and not a terrible experience but I don't even care as long as I fucking get out. I don't think I'm even gonna write a letter, if I do I feel like I'm going to be too harsh I also just don't think they give a shit. Most likely I'm gonna get some sleep tonight and head out in the morning but if she starts talking about me again I'm just gonna go tonight. I'm so tired of being abused and mistreated for something entirely out of my control
I know I can't handle being on the streets again, I still haven't recovered from the last time over a year ago. So either tonight or tomorrow night depending on how the rest of today goes I'll be using my method. Hopefully it's quick and not a terrible experience but I don't even care as long as I fucking get out. I don't think I'm even gonna write a letter, if I do I feel like I'm going to be too harsh I also just don't think they give a shit. Most likely I'm gonna get some sleep tonight and head out in the morning but if she starts talking about me again I'm just gonna go tonight. I'm so tired of being abused and mistreated for something entirely out of my control
