my entire existence is just a projection of my trauma

[violetforever]

it makes living feel like a sad joke because of how aware i am of it. what a limited and regressive existence only being able to navigate the world and all the people in it through a traumatized mindset. everything i do and everyone i interact with is influenced by trauma. im really nothing more than my trauma. i think everyone can easily tell upon meeting me or it will eventually become evident. im off putting to anyone who is decent enough to not want to take advantage of my suffering. my whole life is just feeding into my trauma wounds. i dont have a choice at getting better because the abuse is forever ongoing in my family. the damage was already done in childhood anyway, everything now is just a redundant reliving of it. i dont see a way to go on like this without it ending in suicide.

 

[Charmander07]

I obviously don't know your situation and I'm not usually the best at giving advice. But I think that trauma makes us a part of who we are, my trauma isn't very significant so I might not be able to relate, but it has helped me become me. It does hurt still and obviously it comes with bad traits, and you're obviously gonna have a traumatised mindset cause you're traumatised. Obviously, trauma never comes from good things, but it has probably made you a stronger person now.

Sorry if that didn't help, but I hope that one day you can find peace from your trauma

 

[violetforever]

I obviously don't know your situation and I'm not usually the best at giving advice. But I think that trauma makes us a part of who we are, my trauma isn't very significant so I might not be able to relate, but it has helped me become me. It does hurt still and obviously it comes with bad traits, and you're obviously gonna have a traumatised mindset cause you're traumatised. Obviously, trauma never comes from good things, but it has probably made you a stronger person now.

Sorry if that didn't help, but I hope that one day you can find peace from your trauma

oh im not too concerned about getting help/advice on a lifelong issue. its enough that u even replied, thank u i feel like the bad traits outweigh any "good" traits though.