Venting My end might be near

[MrDarkness]

So for the past few days I've already attempted to hang myself, ofc I'm alive, I currently feel hopeless, i know my life won't get better no matter how hard I try, I'm 18 and I know I have a hole life ahead of me, but I can't try anymore. I will miss out on what it will be liked to be married, go on a first date, make out with someone etc. but idc, I'm so tired, I wanna die, I'm too poor to buy sn, when I get my allowance, cause I can't get a job, I'm gonna buy a climbing rope, and start making my final preparations

 

[Nervosomnifer]

So for the past few days I've already attempted to hang myself, ofc I'm alive, I currently feel hopeless, i know my life won't get better no matter how hard I try, I'm 18 and I know I have a hole life ahead of me, but I can't try anymore. I will miss out on what it will be liked to be married, go on a first date, make out with someone etc. but idc, I'm so tired, I wanna die, I'm too poor to buy sn, when I get my allowance, cause I can't get a job, I'm gonna buy a climbing rope, and start making my final preparations

I get you, man.. I'm 19, been quite lucky with my exams.. Could have a bright future somewhat..but I just don't feel like adjusting to the climate of the society. The strings that bind me, both societal and biological make life seem like something that is undesirable. I just don't want to struggle being in such a pitiful and limited shell anymore..

 

[Torabol]

It's a shame that you're stuck here suffering, hopefully you can figure things out for your life or exit. I'm leaving soon, so I'll look for you at the bus stop

 

[MrDarkness]

I get you, man.. I'm 19, been quite lucky with my exams.. Could have a bright future somewhat..but I just don't feel like adjusting to the climate of the society. The strings that bind me, both societal and biological make life seem like something that is undesirable. I just don't want to struggle being in such a pitiful and limited shell anymore..

exactly, all I have is my family and 1 other friend, honestly my brother could succeed better, I was always the fuck up younger who complains all the time and destroy everything I touch

 

[Nervosomnifer]

exactly, all I have is my family and 1 other friend, honestly my brother could succeed better, I was always the fuck up younger who complains all the time and destroy everything I touch

my mother is the sole reason why I'm still living here. She doesn't deserve the pain I could cause her due to the trust she places into me.. She isn't the one to blame for the world outlook I developed over the years

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just feeling so tired of everything, to me it's really understandable just wishing to escape from all the suffering that existing brings. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans.