My dreams are now just a continuation of my day to day?

[Volatile]

Last night I ended up in various situations that made me feel I had to ctb sooner than expected. I had to continuously deal with suicidal thoughts. Dreams used to be my escape. Not anymore

I didn't mean to put a question mark. I'm just so used to asking questions on here

 

[shadow11]

2 nights ago I dreamed of my ctb, I know it is time, just have to find the right way, I guess hanging is all I have access to.

 

[RoloTomasi]

Last night I ended up in various situations that made me feel I had to ctb sooner than expected. I had to continuously deal with suicidal thoughts. Dreams used to be my escape. Not anymore

I didn't mean to put a question mark. I'm just so used to asking questions on here

I can't really tell what's worse though: having a very nice dream only to wake up to reality hell not wanting to get up, which happens to me a lot lately. Or having bad dreams along with our currently just as bad situations.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I can't really tell what's worse though: having a very nice dream only to wake up to reality hell not wanting to get up, which happens to me a lot lately. Or having bad dreams along with our currently just as bad situations.

Man, I hate good dreams. I'm always with my crush - talking, laughing, cuddling and it feels so good, I'm actually happy and content but then I wake up in my room... alone. Back to anxiety and depression. It's soul crushing.

 

[Smilla]

In all of my dreams I am either dead or dying.

 

[Tiburcio]

Dreams were the burden that used to force me to continue with a life of unfulfilling wishes. Good thing I got rid of them, it wasn't worthy at all.

Talking about sleeping dreams, I have intense nightmares every night. In the half part of them my most loved person is not longer by my side and I cry like a forsaken child.

 

[Ssname]

The moment when you realise a good dream was just a dream is one of the most soul crushing things I have experienced.

About to sleep filled with anti depressants alcohol and sleeping pills. I wonder what tonight's dreams have in store for me.

 

[lv-gras]

Just had a dream about ctb and then woke up. : (


Wish i didn't wake up.

 

[okaoki]

I used to have imaginary friends ,it felt good ,somewhat delaying the thoughts.
until reality hits you hard ,its the worst feelings ,as if part of you already died.

 

[maktubler]

Last night I ended up in various situations that made me feel I had to ctb sooner than expected. I had to continuously deal with suicidal thoughts. Dreams used to be my escape. Not anymore

I didn't mean to put a question mark. I'm just so used to asking questions on here

Are you clinically depressed? That can affect the content of your dreams.

 

[Volatile]

Are you clinically depressed? That can affect the content of your dreams.

I've been clinically depressed since I was abused as a small child. Pills and therapy can't relieve me of this