my depression is turning into rage

[NothingElseMatters]

all i want is hurt myself, break everything in my house and jump off the window, but why the hell this goddamn si still stops meee goodddddd

 

[thedaywillcome]

In the same for me. I was walking and I started shouting and jumping. Very angry.

The fact that my SI push me back living is very very very very very very very idiotic.

 

[NeetAccount1]

Push-ups until exhaustion and one legged or normal squats might help

Wish you could change things through force of will in a straight forward way

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

It is complicated but I prefer to feel anger rather than sadness.

 

[Al_stargate]

Sorry, feel the same, just wanna go. My N should arrive next week so that will give me some peace of mind.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, I can imagine that it must be awful what you are going through. The survival instinct really is so frustrating, as even know we want to die, we are programmed to survive. More than anything, I wish that it was easier to leave this world. I hope you find freedom from your pain in whatever happens.