My CTB thread

[RedFruit]

CTB is the only option at this point.
I have purchased a one way ticket to Florida.
I will land in Miami and then travel to my hotel in Fort Lauderdale.
I have to make it work somehow.
My first method was to get drunk/drugged up and fall off a tall building.
The method id like to do is a cocktail of drugs and alcohol while I lay in the shallow water until I pass out and drown or get hypothermia.
This is not only a hard method but Florida is warm.
Even at night it will still be mid 60's so it's not cold enough.
My last choice is hanging or PH but I'm not sure where to do it.
I wanted to die on the beach and not just around it.
A part of me just wants to sit around out there until I get shot/stabbed/kidnapped if it doesn't work.
I need help as my CTB date is hopefully the 12th.
Backup day is the next day, the 13th.
I really want to be able to call my ex while I'm dying so it should be the 12th.
He will be busy the 13th.
Absolute last day I can push it to is the 14th because that's my hotel check out day and I will have all of my stuff with me.
I'd rather die with as minimal things on me as possible.
If you were me, how would you do this?
I will update this thread with my thoughts and feelings about my CTB plan as to not make a million other threads.
Thanks for looking.​

 

[ilovenewyork]

My first method was to get drunk/drugged up and fall off a tall building, to everyone's dismay.

Nobody will really care. Sure the shock will take their attention for a half hour. But by the next meal they will be reoccupied with their lives.

 

[RedFruit]

Nobody will really care. Sure the shock will take their attention for a half hour. But by the next meal they will be reoccupied with their lives.

It seems that I accidentally deleted a part of my post, so it's not even supposed to say that in the context you're taking it.
Also, this comment was fucking useless and rude. I'm sure most people (like myself) hope to be remembered in one way or another. I sure as hell wouldn't just go on with my life in another hour if I saw that.

 

[imnotcoercive]

Hope you find a method that works for you. We're here if you wanna talk!

 

[RedFruit]

So going through the forum post talking about SN, I have located how to get it on Amazon.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...rick-and-mortar-store-in-the-us.237626/page-8
It's possible I could find it IRL but not sure. I'll probably just buy the one on Amazon.
It sucks that my life has gotten to this point and I am scared to die but that's SI for you. I don't want to continue living my life as some stepping stone for everyone else's rebirth. My life's pirspose has always been to help people along, but never myself. And it won't ever be myself. The only thing that ever motivated me was love. I lost the person I connected to the most. I just can't imagine finding someone who I could connect to more. It's pointless seeing the dating pool and the way the world is going. I feel bad for my childhood self. She didn't deserve this life. I hope I make it to a world of peace.
all of this to be said …

Can I even bring SN on a plane?? I haven't done enough research to remember the ratios of drugs and SN I should be taking. should I just use this beach trip as a beach trip and then use the SN at a later time? I could really use thoughts and opinions.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[meatballlover]

I wouldnt recommend calling your ex if it gives away your intentions (+ if you are drunk)

 

[RedFruit]

I wouldnt recommend calling your ex if it gives away your intentions (+ if you are drunk)

I get this perspective but he already knows how suicidal I am and I wouldn't call until I knew I was already on my way out :) plus I'm also going to be impossibly far away to intervene

 

[RedFruit]

Does anyone have an idea of how I could bring SN on the plane with me? I don't really want to source it out in Florida.
I know that jumping is a risky way to go but it sounds the most appealing for some reason. Just lay on the edge until I'm sleepy enough and then roll off.

 

[bcarroll1]

So going through the forum post talking about SN, I have located how to get it on Amazon.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...rick-and-mortar-store-in-the-us.237626/page-8
It's possible I could find it IRL but not sure. I'll probably just buy the one on Amazon.
It sucks that my life has gotten to this point and I am scared to die but that's SI for you. I don't want to continue living my life as some stepping stone for everyone else's rebirth. My life's pirspose has always been to help people along, but never myself. And it won't ever be myself. The only thing that ever motivated me was love. I lost the person I connected to the most. I just can't imagine finding someone who I could connect to more. It's pointless seeing the dating pool and the way the world is going. I feel bad for my childhood self. She didn't deserve this life. I hope I make it to a world of peace.
all of this to be said …

Can I even bring SN on a plane?? I haven't done enough research to remember the ratios of drugs and SN I should be taking. should I just use this beach trip as a beach trip and then use the SN at a later time? I could really use thoughts and opinions.

Your not suppose to have SN on a plane. You could have to delivered to the hotel your staying at.

 

[RedFruit]

SI is such a bitch. I have to keep reminding myself that my life will only continue to get worse and that it's not worth trying to stay alive anymore. I just wish my ex would come back. He told me he's going to move to Arizona and go to some school. I know he will find someone else and leave me behind. I can't stand it.
So I'm currently canceling my flight because I had no idea that Spirit airlines was going through some type of crisis and canceling flights literally a day before hand. But this lady is saying that she can't even find my information. What is my life.