My christmas present

[thisiswhoiam-]

christmas near = new health problems = wisdom tooth hurts = but when dentist pokes it hard with his tool i dont feel anything = teeth will keep hurting forever now
this happens every single holiday.
i cant deal with a single problem.
i almost died during simple teeth scaling.
i've been fantasizing about slicing my wrists the long way, but it's just fantasies.
even if i dealt with it, there would be a new problem causing me pain tomorrow.
its been nothing but pain for a month and a half without a day to rest, and it will never end.
new ones keep coming by and piling up.
too bad it doesnt motivate me to end it, it does nothing but worsen my situation endlessly.
eventually, i hope it reaches the point where i cant take it anymore and take my life without thinking.
there is nothing left to think about.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is awful how existing can very easily get much worse, there certainly is no relief from suffering in this world where there is unlimited potential to be harmed. And by the way from what I'm aware slitting wrists isn't a reliable suicide method, it has a less than 2% success rate.