Venting My brain is destroyed!

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It's impossible to know how much of my physical health issues and how much psych meds caused this but my mind is destroyed. Its been 30 years now and it just worsens. All you are is your mind. I remember in 4th grade my friend and I were asked to stay after music class to move the teachers standing piano against the wall for her. We wound up pushing wrong and the piano toppled over onto my foot. Excruciating pain. I had something like 24 fractures in it. I was in agony for months but I was still able to enjoy my thoughts, television, conversation etc. The way my mind is the worst fucking torture I can imagine. Its taken everything from me.

Yes sad I understand your torment, the mind can do a number on you.