symphonyofthenight

symphonyofthenight

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Dec 17, 2020
35
And now it feels like all the light in my life has gone out. I ordered my SN. I can't wait for it to come in. I can't live without him. I have a past of ideation but not forming a plan. I'm just so tired of finally picking myself back up, onto my feet, only for life to knock me down again. Without him, there's no color anymore.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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And now it feels like all the light in my life has gone out. I ordered my SN. I can't wait for it to come in. I can't live without him. I have a past of ideation but not forming a plan. I'm just so tired of finally picking myself back up, onto my feet, only for life to knock me down again. Without him, there's no color anymore.
I'm so sorry for your lost from the bottom of my heart. Wishing you strength whatever path you might follow if losing a boyfriend in a break up is hard I can only imagine the pain of losing a soul mate. Hugs hun. :heart:
 
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Red

Red

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Apr 10, 2019
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Can't imagine what that's like - even thinking about it is making me well up in empathy :aw:
So sorry for your loss, big hugs and much love :heart:
 
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AprilsBlessings

AprilsBlessings

Our tainted history is playing on repeat
Jul 26, 2020
172
I'm so sorry for your loss :heart:
 
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BehindTheWall

BehindTheWall

May 21th 2020
Aug 26, 2020
132
I'm truly sorry for your loss. :(
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
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I'm sorry for your loss... :aw:

Sending :hug::hug: and :heart::heart:
 
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symphonyofthenight

symphonyofthenight

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Dec 17, 2020
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Thank you for everyone that has sent condolences. I'm just so tired. He was the only person who understood me. We were supposed to be together forever.

I can't tell anyone else how I really feel - how I don't want to live without him, truly. Because then they're going to send me to the hospital. And I just don't want to live anymore. This is it. My entire life has been an uphill struggle. I just can't fight anymore. I'm so tired. I finally had a little happiness and it was ripped away from me. I can't even go to his funeral. I'm so fucked up.
 
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Secrets1

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Nov 18, 2019
359
My heart hurts for you I'm sorry
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I can't imagine the pain you're going through. I'm sorry to hear this.

I really hope you can find peace. Wish you the best!
 
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Cakes

She/Her
Oct 25, 2020
363
Big hugs to you. I get how you're feeling I've lost my boyfriend too and I don't want to live without him.

Sending you hugs and love.
 
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Arthaniel

Member
Oct 20, 2020
77
And now it feels like all the light in my life has gone out. I ordered my SN. I can't wait for it to come in. I can't live without him. I have a past of ideation but not forming a plan. I'm just so tired of finally picking myself back up, onto my feet, only for life to knock me down again. Without him, there's no color anymore.
I can't imagine what you must feel. condolence
 
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DarkAngel

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May 23, 2020
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Sending much love and empathy.
 
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virginiawoolf86

virginiawoolf86

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Jul 4, 2020
317
I'm so sorry that you've lost someone so special to you. I hope that you can find the time to heal from this. Sending you love.
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,682
I'm so sorry you lost him, you must be hurting so much. Finding out someone you love has died is already enough of a blow, but a partner, just heartbreaking and painful beyond belief.
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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I'm so sorry for your loss. Heartbreak is such a deep pain to endure. I hope you are able to find peace with the path you choose.
 
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Leiden

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Sep 1, 2020
431
Oh how awful. I'm so, very sorry for your loss ❤️
 
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NodusTollens

NodusTollens

Nov 17, 2020
989
Oh no, that's awful- I'm so sorry for your loss.
 
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